That's the thing Anna, literally all these issues I have with my body directly prevent me from looking female. I'm not sure if you've realized (surely you have, with your own transition...) that baldness, acne, odor, oil, ect ect are MALE secondary traits (that still are indeed health defects, by no way is a male 'supposed' to have these traits either, according to modern science.) I simply cannot look female looking like this, I don't care how many Farrah Fawcett wigs I put on or how deeply I have to cake my face with make-up, I simply do not feel pretty in a female sense because I don't have the natural traits of a female (and it directly causes me to have a low confidence.) I really do not look handsome in a male context either, males my age are supposed to look bright, alert, healthy, generally androgynous, and active. I'm neither here nor there in terms of attractiveness. I have no chance at leading a successful career and social life in my current health state, male or female.
And it indeed matters that I actually
do have these health issues (and am not suffering from BDD); it's only natural for a person to dislike a disease, if they didn't have a natural hate toward a disease, they're either a religious nutjob who takes a religious pride in a certain disease, or they're so far out in left field with absolutely no medical education that they bumble through life not giving a care. It just so happens that my career depends entirely on my presentation and appearance (what few careers in the world don't? Maybe I should work at a garbage dump with the other redneck men?) and I cannot receive a paycheck while I have hormonal imbalances and skin diseases.
And yeah, Susanwiki says that testosterone doesn't really matter, that
high levels of testosterone preserve scalp hair more than
low levels do. Specifically, when you combine
low levels of certain testosterone hormones, with high levels of others, it causes baldness and acne and all that. I've said forever that a
balance in hormones is what's the body's true form; every number on every test should generally come back in the middle of two ranges.
https://www.susans.org/wiki/Hair_lossIf I could just get rid of baldness, redness, acne, and oil, I'd at least be able to quickly get out of the house! As it is, I have to spend HOURS covering up my baldspots using Donald Trump techniques, I have to apply cakes of make-up to cover up acne and rosacea, I have to use oil-pads and certain oil-lotions literally every 15 minutes to keep my face from looking like it's literally sweating because it's so greasy, and it creates so much stress. No one my age suffers from this problem, male or female. I personally feel like getting rid of
these problems would help out my immediate confidence more than anything. These are indeed health conditions, Susan'sWiki (and every other medical source on earth) says so, and they should be fixed, doesn't matter if I'm looney or not.