So, last night, I went out with my lesbian best friends. I've known one of them before they were a "lesbian". She's one of those "I chose to be gay, I don't think I was meant to be gay" people. And her girlfriend, has always been that way. I've been friends with both of them since High School, so a few years now, even lived with them. We were in the car, after eating and all that nonsense. We decided to go to the top of the Stratosphere, where one works so it's free to ride the rides and I have never been in the place since I moved here which was quite some time ago.
One makes a comment about having that dream again. My ears perk up. I am a nosy person, I will admit.
The other replies, "Well, maybe you were meant to be that way then." (I suppose it would do to mention this is the "choice gay" one) She shows no sign of caring about this, nor shock. Just acceptance. I am still curious.
So I leaned through the front of the car, as I was sitting in the back, and inquire what the dream was. Immediately it gets really awkward in the car. She refuses to tell me her dream based on the fact, "You'd think I was weird". But I insisted I would probably just laugh. So get super embarrassed, turning red, and covering her face, telling us not to look at her. So this makes me even more curious. So I drill her for another minute or so, her embarrassment leads her to break.
"I've been dreaming I am a boy."
And I just... am in total shock. The "Choice gay" knows somewhat about me, not details but she knows why I don't like taking off my shirt. And she knows I have to go to the doctor and all that. But her girlfriend knows nothing about me. We've been friends for a long time, and she probably has a notion for why I don't take off my shirt and such. I've never told her, she's never asked. Never made a wry joke to judge my reaction. So... It was really odd to me. I felt like I wanted to say... "Hey! That's just like me." in a way.
She was embarrassed, and shy. I know she's had dreams like this before. I've never tried talking to her indepth about how she feels about being a girl, and blah blah blah. But her family is Mormon, and weren't exactly okay with her being gay at first either. I think because she grew up very religious, even if she could possibly really be a boy, I don't think she'd ever choose that option. Because her family means a lot, and that's just something that wouldn't... go well.
But... it was so weird to see something like this unfold before me. I wasn't sure how to react, or what to say. I ended up just throwing out a pat and saying something along of the lines of "why is that weird?". And we just... left the subject where it came from.
