My calendar now shows 730 days on my Estrogen. 730 days is of course 365 days x 2. I won't say time is flying, but it has been a wonderful overall two years. From being the new kid in 2009, and pretty nervous then I have come to find them, heaven forbid (and hasn't) ordinary. The prescription is renewed without more than ordinary caution by my doctor, and the only little item in my health is my glucose level, and the only big issue is 40 pounds of weight. Gotta get on to that for the New Year.
There are things that i am happily missing, like a certain, gray and foggy part of my self that was not depression in the deep sense, but in the sense that it kept me from seeing things like relationships in the bright wonderful light that I see them now. When I am in female mode (which should be 24/7 by the end of the month -- its now 22/7) it feels natural and no longer strange, or special like it used to. I just live female and have not had any trouble with people, even if they wondered about me. Last Sunday, I got told that my parish church is having no problem with my transitioning and people who have not seen me as Vicky have told me they are ready to meet her, so Sunday I will be in a more open female mode there. Other people whom I have talked to also say that they want the part of "MaleName" that they have loved ( a point that i find astonishing - I didn't really feel loveable) to be a full part of Vicky, and to keep the memories of what he did that they appreciated, and those will be part of our new relationship. Yeah, thats another benefit, I can now see and am starting to maybe, sorta, kinda feel things from the past that should have been wonderful, as being that way.
