Why did I dream of her?

[Wild Flower]

There's this girl I might had a crush back 5 years ago... (mind you I like guys), but it wasn't like a true crush or something... I don't know it was like, "I like her, but I want to  be her". And I haven't had contact with her, nor have I thought of her for at least a year or so... Maybe it was because for a few months she accepted me, and she was very friendly to me, but it was so long ago... that it doesn't matter much. She invited me to her graduation ceremony, but I didn't go (this was a month ago). I wanted to go... but that doesn't matter, it was a drinking party, and I heard she's now crazy/drinks/tattoos/piercings. I gave her a necklace (it was my sister), and I think she really liked me. Yeah I guess she was the only girl I had a crush on.

But then I had a dream about her, and I fly around with her. Then I saw her best friend in the dream (her best friend at that time of her life). And a guy approach us, and he asked her, "Why are you talking to him?", and she was like, "He's been my friend for years", and then he said, "You just met him". And then I think I was trying to escape, and then she vanish in the dream. I don't think she even looked like what she did then at that time period.

When I woke up, it was like I was having flash backs from that part of my life.

I guess I just wanted to be her... but just so bizarre.  She was the epitome of femininity I guess for me. But then it's not really a transsexual thing of being jealous of her, but I don't know... just weird to dream about someone I haven't thought in a long time.

[justmeinoz]

Don't look for logic in dreams.  They seem to be the subconscious' way of telling us things through symbols. 

Jung thought there were only about 12 basic dreams that the mind used to explain things to itself.  Often our emotions seem to take the form of an opposite sex figure, either the Animus or Anima.

Everyone will interpret  a dream differently, but it sounds like your emotions are coming to the surface, and you have been aware  of changes for some time, but there are inhibitions too, represented by the disapproving male figure.

It might be worth keeping track of your dreams and see if there are any common themes or features. I journaled mine and it helped me to work out what I was going through.

Karen.

[Pinkfluff]

I believe that some dreams have meanings behind them, and others don't. It could be a subconscious representation of something, or it could be like defraging your computer and you get a whole bunch of different pieces that aren't suppose to fit together but they are together in your brain anyway. I do tend to think that those that really stick with you may well mean something, but not necessarily what they may appear to mean on the surface.

I wouldn't worry about it too much though unless you start seeing the same kinds of things across many dreams.

[RhinoP]

I have that same type of sexuality toward boys; I'm attracted to boys that are sexy with a confident, masculine personality, but I also am only attracted to those guys if they could, if they wanted to, pass as female and/or if they are boys that still appear soft and accessible despite the masculine personality. It's a combination that I wish I was born softer looking like them so that I myself could pass as female *many boys naturally can, I had a best friend once who dressed up as a girl for halloween and he passed so much it wasn't even funny*, mixed with the fact that I do just like very boyish looking boys. Not into haggard men!