Well, I reached out to Erin and expressed my need to talk to her face to face. I told her that there would be no more avoiding the issues on my part. She responded and agreed to meet with me on Friday. I have no anger, no bad feelings what so ever. I feel a lot of pain and sadness, but that's a given. I've lost the person I'm in love with. All I want at this point is to tell her everything I feel deep down inside of me. I need to do that no matter what comes out of it.
She sent me a text the next day asking me what I expected the outcome to be after our talk. She said that she "didn't want to lead me on and have me hoping or assuming that we are suddenly going to be ok and be back together just like that." She also said she "still needs time and space to focus on me." I understand. I don't have any expectations. I know there is a lot of hurt between us right now. I'm at peace with myself and how my heart feels. All I can do now is look into her eyes and speak from my heart. I can only hope she feels my sincerity and my love for her.
I will let you know how things turn out between us and what was said. Thank you for listening.
