I'm looking forward to participating here; it looks pretty active. I'm an FTM transgender. I've always been pretty boyish, for as long as I could remember. There was a time when I was really little that I wore girl clothes, but my mom was probably dressing me at that time (she's still really into leggings now). After that, it was always t-shirts and jeans. I even remember crossdressing as Danny (Cats Don't Dance) when I was about 9 and my sister and I were still playing pretend. I've always identified with male characters more, for some reason.
For the past few years, I've been pretty girly, if for nothing else than just to try it out... something odd happened. I think the media got to me. xD Suddenly, I just wanted to be all feminine and perfect, like the women on TV and in magazines... of course, then I learned that the women on the magazine covers were Photoshopped. All through that time, I kept my male mannerisms, thoughts and perceptions of myself, and kept identifying with male characters, and every now and again would experience a lot of discomfort at the way I looked.
It's much better now that I at least have a sexually ambiguous hairstyle. If I still feel the need to 'fit in' as a woman, then I just don't wear my binder, and slip on something extra girly. When I graduate from college and get a job, I'll probably go to work as a woman, and spend the rest of the day as a man.
Hope to learn a lot here. =)
