One word subjects, it's pretty much covers everything I need to ask and talk about.
As of August 24th, I will be taking my flight out of Las Vegas, NV to Pittsburgh, PA. Why you ask? The brilliance of school. I'm really looking forward to it, but I am also frightened by it. I'm attending a sub campus of the University of Pittsburgh until I can transfer elsewhere. Plus, I really like the area. Pittsburgh isn't far away, I've got a friend in Philadelphia, and a few in New York. I won't know who my roommate is until sometime in early August, but I'm also scared to figure out who it is. I went through so much back and forth with the admissions process with my name change, old court paper work from my childhood for Aid, and everything. So, the college admissions know that I am trans. Something that I don't know how comfortable I am with. I lead a completely stealth life. I know stealth isn't for everything. But I honestly am not a person that is comfortable with people looking at me any different. But I also don't necessarily identify as Trans. I compliment those that live, are comfortable with, and succeed in being Trans. I love working with the LGBT community. I'm just a straight male that enjoys helping out people that deserve every right that other people have.
I'm getting side tracked. Basically, I'm kind of fearing who my roommate might be. It's very possible there is another trans freshman they will have room with me. But my worst fear is that they give me a female roommate, and stick me in the female dorms. I am male in my college information and all of the above, but it's this sickening fear that's been slowly creeping into my head.
I also have no idea what to expect. I've been in and out with my previous doctor whom I started T with. I spent a good year or less searching out a new doctor, finding a couple references through the LGBT community here in town. I went there, but they refused to continue treatment because it was out of the comfort zone of the attending (though the doctor I was personally seeing had family experience with MtF and was comfortable with helping me out and learning the process). I was given a T prescription, a single refill, in the meantime while I continued my search. A search I abandoned when in a couple months I would be shipping off to another state with no intentions of returning.
I've seen a lot of trans related care in the PA area. I am willing to go into Pittsburgh, or slightly out of my way to get proper care. But I'm also fearing they'll make me start from scratch. I don't really see a therapist anymore. I have a therapist in which I talk to here and there, but I no longer pay to see a therapist. She was a MtF. We settled on the fact that other then transitioning and being trans, I was perfectly fine and content with my life now. We had nothing to talk about, my problems from childhood were better, I am better. I am happy. I am a male now and people see it. So we stopped therapy. I just don't want to wind up paying to see a new therapist for however long, then searching out a new doctor in that area in which to continue my T injections. I've moved doctors, but I've never moved this far out of my comfort zone, and completely alone at that.
So anyone in the general area, state, or anyone with similar experience feel free to add in something. Actually, any advice on the matter would be very much appreciated. It's a big change for me. And it's coming up right around the corner. I can feel the slightly fear, the anxiousness, starting to build up slowly.
