I feel disgusting

[jillian]

I am losing weight. down from 220 to 185
Ive been on hrt for 4 weeks.

I get out of the shower and I have shave bumbs all over, hair that I can get everywhere.
I was never hairy, but they stick out like neon signs now.
I know people have said hrt mostly hides body hair, but Ive also heard the opposite.
I am terrified. I feel icky, I just want to feel cute/pretty.

I need to scream

[jamie nicole]

give it time....unfortunately it is a painstakingly slow process.....6 months from now you'll feel much different   

[juliemac]

I agree with Jamie. This is not a fast process.
Take a deep breath grasshopper 

[jillian]

i know. somedays it just sux. 
in my head i already can see me, then i see myself and it doesnt match what i think.
sorry if i seem whiney all the time

[Muffins]

your impatience is getting the better of you.... relax grasshopper.

I know this is going to be not what you want to hear but it's going to take 6-12 months before you start to notice anything really worth mentioning, well unless you feel a neurotic need to hold multiple magnifying glasses up against yourself then perhaps 3 months.
Relax and brreeaatthheeee.

[jillian]

okay...ill just roll.

thanks girls.   I shouldnt of posted this.
There are far more people with worse problems, and there are far more things I should be grateful for. Please forgive my moment.

[jamie nicole]

okay...ill just roll.

thanks girls.   I shouldnt of posted this.
There are far more people with worse problems, and there are far more things I should be grateful for. Please forgive my moment.

why not? isnt this a place to reach out for advice and support? I'm sending you a mega hug!

[Cindy]

Hugs Jillian,

Were family. All problems are to be shared. Who else can we turn to?

Just look at Jamie, she is so gorgeous and her before pic was so male. So hang in there. It will happen, and I think you have a cute face structure that will look very feminine.

Take Care

Cindy

[justmeinoz]

Aunty Cindy is right as usual, Jillian!

  Your eyes, eyebrows and general facial shape look very feminine. Especially your eye and eyebrow shape.  I think you will have strikingly good looks.

We are our own worst critics, as I was discussing with my Gender Therapist yesterday.  I tend to look at my thinning scalp and feel disappointment, except when I am wearing my hairpiece, but he sees a very female face. As I guess everyone else does as I am passing without any problems.

I have found that HRT caused my body hair to become thinner and more fragile, causing it to break below the surface when I epilated.  That was giving my the world's worst crop of ingrowns and sebacious cysts.  I have stopped epilating and started using an anti-ingrown cream, and they have improved a lot.  I will try waxing soon and see how that works out.

Like the shampoo ad says, "It won't happen overnight, but it will happen."

Karen.

[jillian]

thanks. sometimes I just sit here and cry because I want nothing more than to be pretty.

I go to the store and see girls, and they seem so insecure sometimes, and I think in my head, if they only knew how beautiful they are.

My wife is gorgeous, and I have done everything to tell her that, but she still gets insecure. I cant understand it, all the flaws they think they have, when all is said and done they are still the most beautiful creatures in the world. The human female.

For me, I think in my head how I feel, and it is definetley female, and at times I do feel very cute, but when all is said and done, when I look in the mirror, my masculinity shoots out like the vegas strip at night.  I know its probably worse for me, because of how I feel, but jeez.


I know my attitude should be I am beautiful, and I know its whats inside that counts, but if that was all that mattered, why would I go through all this trouble to make the outsides match the insides.

I appreciate everyones tenderness and positive vibes, I really do.
thanks and hugs back

[justmeinoz]

One thing I forgot to mention because it is so basic.   Have you tried a wig?  Even a cheap one you might only wear around the house would make a big change.

Karen.

[Naturally Blonde]

thanks. sometimes I just sit here and cry because I want nothing more than to be pretty.

I go to the store and see girls, and they seem so insecure sometimes, and I think in my head, if they only knew how beautiful they are.

My wife is gorgeous, and I have done everything to tell her that, but she still gets insecure. I cant understand it, all the flaws they think they have, when all is said and done they are still the most beautiful creatures in the world. The human female.

For me, I think in my head how I feel, and it is definetley female, and at times I do feel very cute, but when all is said and done, when I look in the mirror, my masculinity shoots out like the vegas strip at night.  I know its probably worse for me, because of how I feel, but jeez.


I know my attitude should be I am beautiful, and I know its whats inside that counts, but if that was all that mattered, why would I go through all this trouble to make the outsides match the insides.

I appreciate everyones tenderness and positive vibes, I really do.
thanks and hugs back

So you are a married man with a wife? does she know how you feel and is she supportive?

[LilKittyCatZoey]

I am losing weight. down from 220 to 185
Ive been on hrt for 4 weeks.

I get out of the shower and I have shave bumbs all over, hair that I can get everywhere.
I was never hairy, but they stick out like neon signs now.
I know people have said hrt mostly hides body hair, but Ive also heard the opposite.
I am terrified. I feel icky, I just want to feel cute/pretty.

I need to scream

I know what you mean  ooooo did you lose the weight without trying? i noticed that i eat endless amounts of chocolate but am losing weight its weird mwa mwa be patient before you know it you wont be able to think that your not pretty and you have a wife? have you told her? have you prepared yourself for what may happen? dont just push that a side it could end up worse that be care full sweetie

Meow meow Zoey meow

[Seras]

Shaving sucks.
All these nasty prickly hairs are not nice. I know it is only one little thing but it is the one you explicitly mentioned. Why not try epilation or some of these epilation creams. Epilation can be painful and the cream expensive but I find it a lot better.

[LilKittyCatZoey]

try rather wax areas you have barely shaved i think thats better i mean why shave my legs when i can wax them and keep my legs smoother for longer? but then of course you have to wait till hair is visible to shave again...... But the pain isnt that bad

[drkiara]

oh dear dont feel down just come talk to us we will make you feel better it does take time and yes at first i am sure it is all strange and everything is changing maybe not they way you want it to at first but with enough time and work you can and will look just how you want to to feel pretty but your already pretty hun i havent started hrt yet so i cant give much advice on it but i have alot of friends who have and plus there is tons of ppl here. and of ryour comment you shouldnt have posted this ignore that in yourself you posted it becuz you had a problem and you were seeking help and some cheering up well that is just what you got