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Started by JungianZoe, August 07, 2011, 03:53:23 PM

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apple pie

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August 08, 2011, 10:38:23 PM
Hmmm but most other girls don't understand guys very well anyway, right?
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JungianZoe

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August 08, 2011, 10:50:05 PM
Quote from: apple pie on August 08, 2011, 10:38:23 PM
Hmmm but most other girls don't understand guys very well anyway, right?

Exactly!! :laugh:  And all of my girlfriends have consoled me on that fact.  Because one of the things I had to overcome as I transitioned was the notion that I ever really lived as a guy and should be able to understand both sides of the fence.  But the truth is, I never understood the male side.  That's probably why I shut myself away from the world for 10 years.  And when I say I shut myself away, I mean that I probably saw my friends 15 times in those 10 years.  I'd go 8 months without even making a phone call.  Even when I was married, I'd find some excuse to lock myself in the office (the homework after I quit my job and started school was quite convenient for this).

When I say I'm socially immature, I mean just that... :(  I'm living in the world for the first time since I was 15 and that's how old I feel I am.  Nothing makes me happier now than human contact and I can't go a day without it.  Phones and text messages aren't even good enough.  I have to physically be among other people.  That's what transition gave me: it gave me a real life.  That's why it hurts doubly when I get shut out from anyone, friend or family.  It's as if they put more value on my dead, empty soul than the vibrant and colorful one that I've become.
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apple pie

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August 08, 2011, 11:09:23 PM
Yeah me too! These days I want to go out and meet people and interact with them as a girl, it's like my newfound life :) whereas I just shut myself away before because I didn't want to be interacted with as a guy.

But I think I am being weak, because I have been delaying coming out to relatives because I don't want to be shut out by them when I do :( (even though I live in another country away from them now except for one) And people of my culture are generally not accepting of trans people, for example it's still acceptable to make fun of them in the media in my home city, so basically I EXPECT them to reject me......
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