double crossed again but not deterred

[Randi]

I recieved a call from my therapist today who contacted my nurse who initially had said that she would write my prescription for E if I could get a therapist to write my recommendation letter for hrt. My therapist who has no problem writing the letter now says the nurse wants me to see a gender specialist for 1 year before she will write the script. Needless to say I am disappointed in her but the theapist is standing with me thru this.

So I am getting in touch with a new doctor who already works with mtf patients and I will have my therapist letter in hand when I go the first time.

I am keeping my hopes high and will not be herded thru someone's arbitrary hoops that will just waste my time, energy, and money. If my previous healthcare providers won't help me-screw them!

I bought my first dress the other day and have it on now-it really does look good on me and now when I look at myself in the mirror-I can see a woman looking back. At times I focus on one thing that is negative and it clouds the rest of the picture but now-I can really see it in my mind and am pleased with the result. No wonder my wife is having problems dealing with me now-I look more feminine than she does!! I'll bet that is the biggest reason she has problems with my presentation too-she feels threatened by another woman-who also happens to be her husband-strange but true.

I have picked out some earrings that I am going to get if not this week then the next. Wish me luck-I am going for it!

Randi

[Jillieann Rose]

Randi,
I am so sorry.
Don't give up or turn back hon.
Yes get another doctor and if that one doesn't get your prescription find another doctor.
Oh and my wife has asked to not see me dressed. 
But I have been on hormones for over a year and a 1//2 and I will not stop.
You go girl.
Hugs,
Jillieann

[Cindy]

Keep going ladies.

Hugs
Cindy

[V M]

Possibly this new Dr. is a better route to go    You will get your med.s Randi

[justmeinoz]

It's your life they are stuffing around and they are working for you, so if they don't do the job, sack 'em. 

Karen.

[AbraCadabra]

Ah and what do we hear...?    GG vs TG jealousy, hehe   

Ain't we girls all the same, giving to this vice.

Don't be hard on your GG, because you be jealous next... almost unavoidable (exceptions, hello! will confirm the rule)

I'm actually quite amazed about how tough things can get in your part of the world with regards to E prescriptions. Really am.

I'd convinced my GP and got it. Period.

Good luck,
Axelle

[Randi]

I got my bloodwork results back-two liver enzyme levels are high meaning no hrt until that is corrected. That just makes my day better-NOT. I am betting the alcohol I have been drinking is now biting me in the rear-end so it just has to go along with fried foods and sweets-especially ice cream. My mother called a little bit ago to tell me that she was making some and she wanted me to come over after work and have some. OK. I can't eat it but I am feeling the love!

Anyway, I am sad because I was hoping to start back on E very soon. Now it will take a bit longer.

[Jillieann Rose]

I am so sorry Randi.
But hang in there and things will turn around.
Hugs,
Jillieann

[Randi]

Thanks Jilleann, The happiness I feel right now is much greater than the weight of depression from this little setback. I am wearing some new sports bras and this helps me alot and they look inconspicuous at work which is a plus. I love my new lounging dress and that makes me happy too just knowing how feminine I look in it!!!

If you look far enough there is always something to find that is positive.

Randi

Right after I made this post, my wife called. She is now upset because she 'figured out' this is not going to just go away. Duh, as if I haven't said as much to her face. Anyway, any joy I was feeling has gone away leaving me feeling empty and alone.