my last hospital stay, along with all the damages, narcotics, ECT,more restraints and then some more restraints and more injections (that was all they would call them) after I started to get bloody against the restraints, more injections, then on a bed with restraints, more destruction of hospital equipt, I think the total bill, in fact I know, was over $800,000.00 and I don't really remember being there. Then on to the transition area of a state hostpital. I either calmed down to get to a less violent unit or I kept going until St Peter, home of the criminally insane. By the time my stay was up, I could walk the inside grounds (Flight risk), but I had also aqurired enough credits that I had the most privileges of anyone they had ever had there. That's also whre I discovered that I am what I am. If I wanted at the time they would have put me through the entire treatment of meds ,psychologists and surgery. no charge to me. (Joe Satriani is at about 100db in the background)(wow...that was fun). My life has really been a series of gifts from life. I always land on my feet (even when it breaks them), well once I didn't, but I don't remember it , so its like it doesn't count.
Anyways, I'm scared to go back. I will have no control over what each day will
bring.It will be the same people, different faces. what will happen? I don't know either. I think I overheard them talking and they think it will be less than 30, week -10 days tops. (Stevie Ray Vaughn, Texas Flood)*turn it up some more*.......Anyways, the decision won't be until tomorrow late morning, Maybe a Latte`Morning! I just have to play it out. Bye!
