I'm preparing to move into a shared house with several complete strangers next weekend.
Yesterday my ex came to my flat to collect my dog, almost as soon as she arrived my dog wouldn't stop pestering for my attention, it was as if he knew what was happening.
When they left together I spent a few hours crying then went to bed, I started crying again when I put my book down & turned off the light as my dog would take this as his cue to jump on the bed & get comfy next to me for 10 - 15 min, he then jumps off the bed & gets comfy on his rug.
When I woke up in the morning it was heartbreaking not to have him licking my face (even though I hate it & chase him off the bed as soon as he starts) & I started crying again.
I had several tearfull episodes at work today especially when one of the women asked why I looked so miserable, I made the mistake of trying to tell her & was in tears before i'd finished the first sentence.
Then when I got home I could hear my footsteps echoing around the flat, normaly any noise is drowned out by my dogs exited greeting.
I've now had a cry whilst typing this, it's really stupid for me to be like this as I can visit him whenever I want & once i'm in a position to give him a good home once more then my ex will let me have him back but right now I just can't control the tears, I know that it's best to let the tears flow to get this out of my system but I just want to get over the constant crying.
