I feel like giveing up

[Starriver19]

I just lost my job and soon maybe my house. I told my boss who is also my dad that I was trans. He got real mad and fired me told me to get off the consrution site. This normaly wouldn't be a problem except for the fact that my car just got repoed. I don't know what to do my wife depens on me to pay the bills while she takes care of the house. I can't tell her I am jobless. what do i do when i just want to die.

[Jennie]

Hi Starriver, I hope things get better for you, hang in there and don't give up.
I know it is easy for me to write this but really, it can be done, just don't give up, aloha.

Jennie

[Cindy]

Hi Starriver,

I'm Cindy in Australia and will be on for a few hours.

Killing yourself will not solve any problems. It will make them worse. How would your wife feel? Do you have children? How would they feel? How is your Mum?

Know lets get some info, why does your Dad want to fire you? As a construction boss he will have 10-20% of his male employees as gay, even if they are not out. Just life. Your sex preferences don't matter. As a TG person you are a TG person. Has been being TG ever affected your work?

Cindy

[Starriver19]

hi cindy  no i don't have kids. My mom ignores my problems. My dad calls us IT and FREAKS. He doesn't have a problem with gays just trans. Now I am not going to kill myself that would only be easer for my. I just feel like I could lay down and die. Maybe it's a good thing I am jobless now I can hunt for a job that will allow me to transion openly. Maybe but I doubt it.

[Cindy]

OK Hon,
I've got to sleep. You can get me tomorrow honey

Cindy

[ativan]

Well you've gone from gonna to maybe in three days. That's good. Stop the negative self talk now. Your parents aren't going to change their beliefs to accomodate you, but they may have enough reason to now to educate themselves about you. Helping them with that could be benificial for you. You need to stay away from anything negative about this. I know. I was just there, only worse, a couple weeks ago. I'm still having problems concentrating on anything positive.

The understanding isn't about transgenders so much as it is about all of your worlds seeming to have turned upside down. Take the time that you can to reorient yourself to the world and your parents, too. That was a huge change for all of you just a few days ago. Let it go if you can. Maybe your parents can do the same. It's not like you just did something stupid, you haven't changed so much as the world just did.

Ativan