Confuseddddddd!!

[JustAnotherDreamer]

I don't even know what to say really...
basically, I'm starting to feel, hmm how can i put this...like a boy?
I pass 100% (on hormones) and EVERYONE is supportive but for the past few months i haven't been happy at-all
I'm starting to question whether or not this whole thing has been a huge mistake. but then i think its been 3/4 years and i'm only now starting to have doubts?   It doesnt make sense.
I suppose the only way i can describe how i feel is, as a guy, i felt like there was a girl 'trying to break through' and now as a girl, i feel as though there's a guy trying to get out..
don't get me wrong, I'm normally pretty happy as a girl, but i never HATED being a boy either and plus, i don't, nor have i ever, had any real problems with my genitalia
I'm offically doomed.

[azSam]

Some people just don't identify as either or they identify as both. My best friend is in the same type of boat. She (I call her she) was born male, but really doesn't identify more as male or more as female, and she's settled on that. For her what has worked is female pronouns. In boy mode you can call her by her female name and female pronouns, but in girl mode you cannot use the male name or male pronouns. So I always refer to her as if she is in girl mode, regardless of how she identifies, and she doesn't have a problem with it.

Like you she never had any problems with her genetalia, and doesn't really have any problems being a boy.

It can be complicated, but try not to make it more complicated than it has to be. Be who you want to be.

From a more abstract point of view, could your lack of happiness be related to something else? Maybe it's that the honeymoon phase is over and your coming down from that initial high. It happens to a lot of us; we're close to completing this journey so now we need to learn how to just live our lives and move forward.

[MarinaM]

It happens to a lot of us; we're close to completing this journey so now we need to learn how to just live our lives and move forward.

Samantha strikes again! Yep, your feelings are not exclusive. Go ham it up as a guy somewhere for a while if you want to, try to have fun with everything! Boxes are what got you into transition in the first place, step away from them.