It's on my terms, and about time too....

[findingreason]

Since last weekend I have been working with myself nonstop to get back to a state of good mind like I was a month ago. In the individual session following the one where my counselor delayed writing my letter, I warned her that I would do this with or without her help, and I was not kidding. I called the other day to a doctor's office near where I live that when I was researching online was rumored to do informed consent on HRT. It turns out it was true! And it is covered on my student health insurance too. So now I do not need a letter to get going, and when I am ready again, I will not have to deal with the gatekeeper crap getting in my way. It will be on my terms, not anybody else.

Right now I just have to get back under control the doubts that I actually had under really good control a month ago, which sucks I'm feeling pretty masculine right now which is kicking my behind, but I'm reminding myself that there was a good reason why I got so upset, depressed and run over when transition was delayed, if it wasn't such a big deal that would not have happened.

[AbraCadabra]

Same story, just as it happened to one very much older girl, - me.

When after 3 month I was refused HRT by my psycho I flipped, left his office almost - if not suicidal.
The good thing? I got my act together, like: grow up lady, and essentially did what you did.

It was empowering, and the (banned by my psycho) HRT subject, was in no further need of discussion and begging, and etc.

In the end it is US that have to make some informed decisions, and not some gatekeeper playing on being the holy parental guide from above.

You are lots younger, OK. Just imagine this to myself being years older at 64 then the gatekeeper... it was very, VERY upsetting in deed at the time.

Enough said,
Axelle