Hey,
The name I was given is Rebekah. I'm 19 now and for as long as I can remember I've always been a bit of a tomboy since Primary School. I've gone out with a couple of boys later in life but I just never wanted to kiss them or do anything further than that, it just felt wrong. So I kind of assumed that I must be Asexual because I've got a very religious family who have always taught me that Homosexuality is a sin etc etc.
I'm obsessed with anime and cosplaying, and have always found myself really comfortable when I cosplay men. I bought myself a binder and I just feel so much more comfortable with myself when I'm playing a male character. I would sometimes wear it to college or out in public and just feel so much better about myself whenever I did so.
I met a girl at college and last year I got over the fear of upsetting my family and have been with her for what feels like the best year of my life~
But still something felt missing with my life. I always prefered to roleplay or kiss/cuddle rather than actually have anything more than that. I thought that there was obviously something wrong still with myself that I obviously was just in denail about and so was hiding it away without thinking about it. With a long talk with my girlfriend, we came to a conclusion that I really was just not happy with myself. Ever since puberty I have just felt awkward with my huge boobs and everything down below. Over the past few days i've been talking to a few of my friends I know who feel that they were also born not quite the way they feel, and they recommended me to this website. I've been reading through everything the past two days and I know for a fact now that I'm a man. I'm trapped in this body and I just hate it. I need to know more and get this sorted out. I'm really scared about what to do. I have a really supportive woman in my life who says she will support me through whatever I do and has helped me choose a name and has started calling me by male pronouns~ It's been such a great help~ <3
So yeah, I'm Elliot~ Nice to meet you~
