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I'm gay..with a girlfriend?

Started by Wes, August 31, 2011, 11:24:56 PM

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Wes

Ok...this is something that's gotten me to feeling rather oddly for the past few months since me and my 'girlfriend' (And I use that term loosely) moved in with one another. I met her online and when I did, I identified as a male, of course so she always knew me as male. Never in her mind was I ever female. But, she also knows I am gay. I love men in a sexual way. But, I love women in an intellectual way. She knew this when we started being a couple and has accepted the fact that I will not ever have a sexual relationship with her, that our relationship is purely non-sexual. But we still call each other boyfriend and girlfriend even though we behave more like best friends than a couple, I do love her with all my heart and want to share everything with her.

But, I still have this want to be with a man in a sexual manner. I was wondering if anyone else has this issue or not? Am I being weird or lying to myself? Should I call her just a friend? I'm so confused about the whole thing even though she seems to act like there's nothing wrong with her calling me a boyfriend...I'm just...lost right now in the relationship thing right now and could use some feedback if there's anyone else out there like myself.
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Sharky

You need to make it clear to her that you guys are just fiends. Make sure you guys are on the same page.
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Arch

I haven't been in this situation. But I was once in a fairly unconventional relationship--a triad marriage with a man and a woman--and we defined and developed the relationship to suit ourselves. There's no reason you can't do the same, right? What works for everyone else won't necessarily work for you.
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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Natkat

this remind me of the song, gay boyfriend XD
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anyway, I guess im bi/queer something, but I also tend to say im gay/homo, so my sexualety is a mess.
I think I got some relationship with a couple og girl-friends where we maked out and kinda played around without having sex, but I think one of them end up falling in love with me, even thougt she never told me, I the best thing is as sharky says to make it clear what you want. its hard enought to be inlove when its not returned, but if they get expectations that maybe it can work out then they will be disapointed (why do I say they?.. her.. sorry XD)

I also had a somehow simmular issue with being attractive to people I would try as much as posible to refuse anything sexual.
but it wasnt because I wasnt attracted to them, but because I where kinda worried of the other person,
ex
I had a person who where asexual,
and a mtf where I kinda didnt knew how to do anything without making the person fell unconfortable.
and a person who where 14 and I felt like a perv because she tecnically were a minor.. (im 18 and your not allowed to be with anyone less 15)
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GentlemanRDP

While I haven't been in this kind of situation before, I believe that I know where you're coming from - from an opposite point of view. I happen to love women sexually, and I always have. However, I've always been the type of guy who can willingly admit that some men happen to be gorgeous; physically, intellectually, and what have you. But unlike you, I am sometimes sexually attracted to men - however, never to the point where I want to sleep with them (I fantasize about them, yes, but... ) The idea of really sleeping with them or doing anything sexual completely sends me off the deep end. I know that all of this sounds very strange, I don't know how to explain it any better than this.

As for what you should do about it, well...I'm not sure.

I would say, that if you have the urge to be with a man, then...be with a man and start calling her a friend. It's not like you can control that urge of yours, and you don't want to suppress it while allowing her to call you her boyfriend (We all know that plenty of women out there get emotionally involved even when they try to tell themselves that we're 'just friends,' But some men do this too, ) Still though, I'm assuming that you don't want to hurt her, so it might be best to cut it off and remain simply as friends.
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Berserk

Not all relationships have to involve sex. Could it be that you're just romantically interested in your "girlfriend"? I think it's possible to love someone beyond being just friends while only wanting the "romantic" or non-sexual aspect of the relationship and leaving out the sexual. Maybe, like someone else said, what works for others isn't what works for all of us. If you're happy with how things are with her right now, and she's cool with the way things are now then is there a problem with it? And if you wanna sexually active with guys or start dating a guy where the relationship is a sexual one, does that necessarily mean you have to abandon the non-sexual relationship you have with her? Being a boyfriend or a girlfriend doesn't always have to equate to sex. Some people who are asexual only enter into non-sexual relationships, which have as much value as any other. I guess it also depends on how you feel about monogamy vs. polygamy. If you enter into a sexual relationship with a guy, will it bother you to continue to have things the way they are with her right now? Will it bother her? Will it bother the guy?
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Wes

@GentlemanRDP: Actually that is pretty much how it is with me. I have always thought women were gorgeous and stunning, I just can't ever have sexual relationships with them...

@Berserk: You raised some pretty valid questions and I think that she would be ok with it if I did have a male sexual partner. We've even talked about, in a joking way, but it was still brought up about me having a little bit of man meat on the side and we laugh. I think we would be ok with it..dunno about the guy since I doubt I'd ever find a man for me anyway...but yeah.

I guess I have an issue with being called a 'boyfriend' or calling her 'girlfriend' when I identify as a gay man. I was just about to say I wish there was a word to describe but I think I just answered my own question. She's more a companion in my eyes, I guess.
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N.Chaos

Dude, I'm actually in a similar situation. Mine's different, and disgustingly complicated, but it's similar enough where I kind of thought "Holy ->-bleeped-<-, I'm not the only one!"

I don't want to launch into my personal sob story, but I'll just give you a warning. If you're with this girl in any way, and you're getting a guy on the side, make absolute, 120% sure that she's not going to give you hell for it, and even then...just be careful. I went off my girlfriend's word that it would be okay if I slept with our mutual best friend, me and her split up, I started dating him and my life has been an on and off nightmare since. There's a lot more to it but it's totally irrelevant.

To make a long story short, really, really make sure what you're doing and if what she's saying is really what she means. I've seen this happen a million times where a girl says one thing, means something else, and expects something else entirely. So...just be careful.
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Wes

Glad to know I'm not the only one in this type of relationship. And thank you for the advice. I am kind of scared that she is saying "No no it's ok" but only saying it while internally wanting something else. We'll see how it goes if I ever do find a man willing to be with me..
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Sharky

I agree with N. Chaos. You have to pay attention to what she means and not just what she says. She may be hopeing that if she sticks with you that some day you will change and want her.
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