I'm strongly considering detransition

[Julie Marie]

I'm not just considering detransitioning out of fear; there IS a guy in me, and a girl too.

According to a very trans educated therapist, what you said would be described in the gender spectrum as transgender (not the umbrella term).  She defined it as this, "Having one foot in each camp, male and female, and not wanting just one or the other."  She also said out of the four categories in the gender spectrum, this was the toughest.  I've often thought this could be me.

[inna]

Not liking who you were and not quite who you want to be?

Baby, a classic definition of GENDER DYSPHORIA, yin and yang of TG self. This will surface nearly all of the median interval of transition, but will quiet down when both, female and male self, merge into one cohesive being. Such is the road to sanity, first you got to go insane............sorry you must walk this path but you are most definitely not alone.

Love Inna

[Stephe]

why concern yourself with something so superficial as gender presentation?

Speaking for myself this "superficial" thing as you call it absorbed way too much of my time and energy for many years of my life until I finally dealt with it. For some people, their gender issues are all about their own physical body and they are fine being on HRT, hiding their gender issues from the world. I know a few MTF TG's who have been on HRT for years, live as guys and seem fine with doing this. But for others, like me, how I am seen and treated by others is huge and the other stuff like HRT is just to enable me to present as my true gender. So please be careful, what you consider superficial could be VERY important to someone else.

[soulfairer]

I just want to point this video out if you have never seen it:

Bell Nuntrita a trans tailandesa que interpreta com duas vozes

*what* a voice!