I'm Alone.

[Cindy]

The bed room is bare I have cushions and chairs, and bright coloured covers and I'm alone.
I cook a nice meal, with taste, love and feel, and I'm alone
I drink some wine, I'm alone.

I look in the mirror, see the horror, I know why I'm alone.

I try so hard and at times my love is discard, and I'm alone

I look into their eyes, all who have tried, and I'm alone

I cry. I sob. Why am I alone?

I hold my self up

I hold true to love.

Why am I alone?

Sorry just  GID wave

Love Cindy

[bethw]

Oh Cindy;
You're never alone. I'm here for you and send as much love your way as I can. Please, oh please, never feel alone.
Hugs always
Beth

[Devlyn]

Hi Cindy! Luv ya! Hugs, Tracey

[annette]

Sweet Cindy

You're alone because your friends lives far away.
But, we're thinking about you often and we love you.
I hope this helps a little.

hugs and kisses
Annette

[V M]

You're not alone Sis     There are many folks who love you including me     But I can empathize with you on feeling that way

I spend most of my time alone and often feel very lonely... I get filled with anxiety and depression... It bothers my appetite and sleep and kills my motivation... Like the past couple of days, I've had to make myself do things... I was tired as hell because I didn't sleep well, but I have appointments to keep and there are things that have to get done

Okay, so I make myself eat and then fall asleep either on the sofa or at my computer desk and wake up all stiff and soar and trail off to bed where I sleep a bit more and then wake up and can't go back to sleep and then become depressed, maybe even have a panic attack and get up and do something until I feel sleepy again... But then often it's time to get up and get going again

Eventually I hit burn out stage and sleep for about 12 hr.s

Sweet Cindy

You're alone because your friends lives far away.
But, we're thinking about you often and we love you.
I hope this helps a little.

hugs and kisses
Annette

True that... I'm sure that if we were all neighbors your place would be filled with folks till you'd be ready to run us all off 

Hugs and Kisses Sis

- Virginia

[spacial]

I really understand your feelings Cindy.

I know, when I felt like that, I eventually realised I was actually unfulfilled in my present situation. I then thought carefully about what it was I actually wanted.

There's an old notion that we can be alone in a crowded rom. This is true if we actually want someone to talk to and no-one is. Equally, we can be really fulfilled being physically alone.

I realised I actually like being physicaly alone, but do need to know there is someone out there who will always accept me for what I am.

I ended up marrying that one.

I realise you have problems in this area, but once you figured out what is really missing in your life, you might be better able to think about what to do about it.

[grrl1nside]

Hi Cindy;

I hope this doesn't last too long for you or become too overwhelming. I'm not sure what is worse being alone or being in a crowded room... Regardless, both can feel isolating depending on what I'm feeling at the time. I hope you feel the warmth from your friends here and find a little moment of peace with yourself at home.

If it gets overwhelming we are here and maybe you could do one nice thing for yourself. Maybe a candlelit bath? Anything that helps... Well, I might have a secret stash of ice cream somewhere.

Hugs...

[AbraCadabra]

Hi dear Cindy,
just a nasty GID attack, never mind 'wave'. --- Don't we know them all?

When in the wringer of GID we sometimes feel we never get out of it, or will ever leave all the CRAP behind us.

Actually being alone is not such a bad state of affairs --- feeling / being LONELY sure is.

Though being alone can get scary, very scary, as we then miss our coping mechanism: "Distraction".

Distraction manages to keep us very often away from our TRUE feelings.
It can even get panicky when distractions are gone.

Nothing wrong to cry another pisspot full of tears and get in touch what it is we REALLY need.
It won't be more distraction, but all those other things we keep a lid on by using distractions.

I think of fear. Fear of staying alone... Fear -> is the absents of Love.

We often have to learn to become more vulnerable again in order to receive love.

Just what comes up from my 'well'
Axelle

[kelly_aus]

Never alone, sis.. oh, and btw, sent you a PM..

[Kimberley]

Cindy I understand what you are feeling.

[Amazon D]

hugs sis

[AmySmiles]

I know how you feel Cindy, I've been in a rut for a few days.   Thankfully these things come and go in waves and the next high point will arrive soon.  *hug*

[Cindy]

Thanks to all of my gorgeous friends.

A bit of a GID attack.
Being cured with sleep and tea and breakfast.

Will be totally cured with meeting kelly this pm for hot chocolate

Hugs and Thank you

Cindy

[kelly_aus]

Good to hear you're feeling a little better..

Looking forward to chocolate this afternoon..

[Cindy]

Thanks Sis see you about 3.

Hope the rain keeps off

Cindy

[Jennifer]

Hi Cindy, This made me cry because I'm feeling the same, then I cheered up when I saw your later post.

Jennifer

[Cindy]

Good Jennifer, wish you could all come for coffee with Kelly and I.

Hugs
Cindy

[Jennifer]

Wish I could, but I did just have some chocolate!

Jennifer

[findingreason]

**Hugs** glad to hear things are going a little better right now.

I definitely understand what you feel....been there more than once in recent days too.

[Hermione01]

Good to hear you're feeling better.