I'm in the same boat. But I get a sense of accomplishment knowing that I'm helping people. I am fairly stealth, and I'm not going to champion the cause for trans-justice. But one way I can help our community is to offer advice and act as a mentor.
I am, for all intents and purposes, finished with my transition. How the world will view me will not change from this point on, the surgery is purely for me and my intimate partner, not for the world. Being finished with my transition, I don't feel that I have the need for the support that this site offers, or my local trans-group for that matter; I only wish to give back to the community that has so selflessly given to me.
I can understand perfectly well how you feel, Maia. I felt the same way a few months back and did some drastic things, but I've finally met a happy medium. I hope you have fun in your time away, I think it's necessary for all of us at some point. Just come back to us... kay?