It was this long horrible silence. And all I could think of was, "WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO YOURSELF? COULDN'T YOU JUST HAVE WAITED 4 YEARS?"ngrjkhnjtr klhbjt rlkmvn
I'm shaking. She was gonna, think about it. Which pretty much means no.

And she noticed the website, which was a sex toy website thing. And I dunno. She said how, that wasn't for me. And how I'm' too young for it. I was really close to asking, "So what? My brothers didn't have dicks when they were my age? I HATE YOU!"
But I stopped myself, because I really don't think that would get me anywhere. And I said that, it was just soft, not like anything hard. And I really couldn't think of how to explain why I need it. I kinda blurted out, "It would make me comfortable." but she just asked "what?" so I don't think she caught it.
I hate being underage. And now I feel like vomiting. And jumping out my window.