Actually was not so sure were to put this post. Under HRT? Well, I'm off E for close to 2 weeks now and this notion is coming about.
Also I'm so || close to SRS, and it might have to do with that? Yet, I'm not post-op – as yet either.
Lastly it might just happen to many/most/all? Regardless of pre- non- post-op and our time on RLE/HRT (if any).
So I put it here in our "living room" so to speak :-)
I have noticed something rather comforting, yet slightly odd? My history feels more and more once again about who I am/was, but simply as the female not the 'cover-up' boy version when I think about the past.
It's now the girl inside that has stepped to the outside, even when going over my history. IT IS RATHER AMAZING... it feels right, it feel good, it feels just fine.
All my 'flashbacks' I do get in quite moments like early this morning, the birds chirping, it's 4:30 am, and the places my mind visits, are with Axelle, even Michelle as the girl, (my earlier used name up to age 6) and no more that 'boy' - so often quite sad inside.
I don't want to make it that long and hope I have made my point.
Can't you relate to this?
And about how long into RLE, HRT, or maybe SRS did that come about --- if in deed it did that?
It is almost as if a 'mind-split' is healing itself, and does feel like things are coming together, becoming "one" - again.
Thank you for any responses,
Axelle
