So I went for my first hrt lab results and the doc was concerned due to I had no measurable testosterone.
Ive been on the same dose for 2 months.
I think this explains my dark depression, my achey joints.
This is supposed to be a happy time. I will say that considering my complete lack of testosterone, I have had quite a few happy times.
However once I get bummed, it spirals right into suicidal thoughts. It could be anything, "my chin is to big", "my arms are to large", "she called me sir", "he called me bro"
Well at least there is the possibility that once my t gets balanced out, Ill be able to face these hurdles without jumping off a building or boring a hole in my head.
I guess its good I can afford a doctor, who knows how deep this depression could of gotten.