i have been going to work as a woman.

[jainie marlena]

I have been going to work as a woman all this week. At first I was scaried but there was little to no reaction from anyone. I had thoughts of them telling me I could not dress this way. I thought every conversation was about me especially if I heard laughter. I felt like people were trying to avoid me. My imagination was getting the best of me but I made it.

On my way home I was asked by my supervisor if I wanted to be on the committee. He said that I have given lots of good input to inprove the work place seens I started there. All that was going through my mind is I'm being myself. This is all I have ever wanted. I don't pass by far but for me it can't be about passing. Why? I started my life being one person and I am transforming into another infront of them all. My goal is not to change just my life but everyone around me. I know what its like to be controled by what others think. They need this to move them past what they see and so do we how many are there of us? If others like us see me walking around and noone is doing or saying anything to me they my realize this is a open place to live the way they want. This is my walk. This is my journey. What can I say? Do I want to pass? Yes. But I really want to live more.

[Sunnynight]

I felt like people were trying to avoid me.

I felt like that for a while, and now it seems like more people approach me than before. Like people I don't know at all are like, "Hi _____". There's no reason that transitioning has to turn you into a pariah, although I admit I have been very lucky with others' reactions.

[jainie marlena]

@sunnynight, that just is it. I was an outcast being a man. I sat alone because I was not one of them from the being. Transitioning is opening the door for me to be the out going woman that I have always dreamed of. I talk to people about things what they choose to do with it is up to them. Trying to use what I say to further ones own cause only moves me to the next stage of mine. I was planing to go to work as a woman after using Spiro for awhile but someone outed me as gay at work. Four monthes people were thinking this and I did not even know it. If they thought I was gay four monthes then the truth being known is far better. So going to work as a woman became possible earlier because them just thinking a lie gave me the strength to live the truth in front of them.

[justmeinoz]

Good for you sis.  If they don't like it they can build a bridge and get over it!

[jainie marlena]

"Good for you sis.  If they don't like it they can build a bridge and get over it!"
@justmeinoz, thank you. I liked "build a bridge and get over it". I may start using that with people that just can't let go of things.