Well, where do I begin? OK... Let's see... My name is Aryn Keith *insert last name here* and I'm a 30 yr old gender-queer/FTM. I just came out to my GF (of 4 years) about a month ago, which she then proceeded to dump me, but wants to stay friends, better than nothing right?
So yeah, I've always known something wasn't right with me. My earliest memory of feeling this was when I was 5-6 yrs. old. I hated dresses and all the girly crap my mom tried to put me in. Except my Rainbow Brite shirt, even tho it was pink and frilly, I was OK with it, LOL. But anyways, I wanted to wear "boy" clothes, which I'm assuming my mom thought it was just "tomboyish" or something so I got my brothers hand me downs. I refused to use the ladies room in public, which resulted in many urinary problems at a young age. I remember asking my dad to take me to the bathroom just so I could go to the boys room. I knew my dad and bro stood up to pee, so I used to try peeing standing up at home, I actually got good at it.I used to watch my dad shave and would get so excited when he would put shave cream on my face & let me "fake" shave. I remember when we moved and I started 1st grade at a new school, they asked me what name I wanted to use and I instantly piped up and said Erin as I knew Aaron was the boy name and I could pass as a boy that way. *****
OH BTW, my birth name is Erin Kathryn, prior to 1st grade, everyone called me Katie***** When we went to visit my grandparents, they would let me go to the park across the street and I always played off that I was a boy to my new weekend friends. AND they bought it. I always felt more confidence, even so young, by passing as a boy. I consistently tried to pass until my boobs got to big to hide and at some point, I gots me some "child-bearing hips."
By 9th grade I tossed it all up that I was a dyke, as I was so lovingly called by my peers. And so I ID'd til about 5 years ago. Feelings started to erupt just as a few of my friends started to transition. The further they got into there new lives, the more I started questioning/recalling mine. Two of them are FTM's, and I also made friends with a pre-hormone MTF in college. And here's where I digress... for not being on any hormones, she was hot as hell, I might have to look her up, seeing as I'm newly single and all...
AND here I am now, 30 years old, 1/2 of my support system gone, fearing that telling my parents will kill them, I mean telling them I dig chicks was bad enough, they ain't no youngins anymore, thems is old, decrepit & falling apart... This is gonna hurt... Might drive my dad over the edge
Wow, my life story (well the relevant stuff anyways) summed up into an "about me" introduction...
SSSSSOOOOOOO Come be my friend, talk to me, tell me all ur life experiences - FTM + MTF +
EVERYONE
