Welcome to the site.
Well this is a great forum to join. I am sure you will find the variety and topics vast.
Ya that crossdressing thing isnt going to go away. Might as well save the money by keeping your clothes, and only throw out worn out or out of style items. After all, there are crossdressers starving in other countries around the world (hehe JK. Though I guess there are).
You'll see plenty of topics on shaving, a few on tucking, and maybe some on creating cleavage, if not feel free to ask new posts in the section that they fit. We have a good section even in sexuality, you can discuss your question on attraction to women vs thoughts of going with men.
You have a partner that doesnt know about your little secret with, though your not married. So are you considering whether and how to reveal to her (hir) your secret, or pondering whether it will destroy your relationship or not? Sounds like Togetherwecan has a great perspective from a partner point of view so I would take up her (hir) offer.
I am a intergender androgyne living now 4 years (known her (Hir) for 5 years) who knows about me almost the entire time. I live full time androgynous of course to a great extent. And sometimes crossdress more feminine or masculine (I consider it crossdressing to me when I either way more than my daily androgynous ways like in my current profile pics).
Anyway I look forward to reading more posts if I come across them.
Ken/Kendra