I have been married to my wife as of this December for a year shy of a decade and we have always held the belief that it was us against the world. My wife and I however have a very large disparity in sexual interest. I have read that many trans-women are asexual, however I for one am most certainly not though my wife is. Coming in to this marriage I had known that I was on some level bi-sexual, but had leaned primarily towards women. Today I can no longer tell if that attraction to women was my jealousy or actual interest. I did over the course of my hormone treatment find that my attraction to men definitely started taking a more distinct shape and my attraction to women much less so. I still seem to be somewhat attracted to them, but I am very very jealous of other women in relationships with men.
My conundrum is that I can never break my wife's heart again (after coming out to her) and I can't seem to be cold enough to break up my family yet I know for the rest of my life I will want to know what it's like to have that relationship with a guy or better yet be swept off my feet by one! I want to be wanted buy a guy that will do anything for me. This is all so much stronger 4 weeks post-op, than ever before!!!
I feel I will now have something new to either make me unhappy or my wife!!
