Before I came out to myself, I thought I was a straight male; and for almost two years after coming out to myself, I thought I was a gay female. Then, less than two months ago, a guy walked into my place of business, and ... Shazam! No one could have been more surprised than I was. Since then, I've experienced it with other guys; so, I think it's probably something that's been there all along, but deeply repressed.
I still find women attractive, but, thus far, the nature of the attraction is different. With women, it's more physical; with men, it's more emotional. It makes me wonder how much of sexual attraction is nurture vs. nature. I'm guessing there's some of both, and that the balance of the two in any given person is highly variable, i.e., with some people, it's mostly nature, while with others nature is less demanding.
So, I suppose I'm bi -- or, more accurately, pansexual. I have a vague suspicion that, if I had been raised as the girl I was, I might only be attracted to men; but that's water under the bridge, at least so far. What's weird -- as if all this weren't enough -- is that, a few months ago, the notion of being married to a man was impossible; now, I can see it. I'm not looking for it, but it's no longer a fantastic notion. It seems as though, as my femininity emerges, my needs as a woman are expressing themselves more fully, in a more well-rounded fashion. It's actually very welcome.
Quote from: supremecatoverlord on November 20, 2011, 09:59:57 PM
Always been more attracted to women. :3
I love your avatar!