Hello Emily,
Welcome to Susan's. It is a pretty friendly and sincere place. Lots of good news and information. I hope you will be able to find what you are looking for, and stay a while.
It's nothing unusual for things develop the way they have for you. You are very normal.
Depending on your age and how you would like to 'evolve', there are basically two ways of achieving your goals. Either tag along here and read some blogs, join in the conversations and ask questions; or you can go the 'express' lane. That would be to see a reputable gender therapist, gear yourself up for the pending change. Get all the boxes ticked, change, and start enjoying your new found freedom. Totally emancipated and free to be the one you were destined to be.
There may be a group of Aussies swing by later to say 'hello', or to be more political correct; "G'day mate!" Don't worry, they'll just be trying to convince you to come over to the Promised Land, if you're not already here. LOL Trust me, they won't bite.
In the meantime, be safe, well and happy
Lotsa luv
Catherine