I'm quite confused by this thread, so I went to check your Youtube channel to see if there was any clarification, and after reading your bio on your channel I just got even more confused.
Basically you don't identify as female, but are transitioning because God told you to do so, so that you can see how it is to live as a woman and realize it's not inferior to being a man? I mean ... what? I'm sorry but I just can't wrap my mind around it ...