Today I finally decided to tell my mom I am for sure FTM. (I told her a while ago and quickly took it back. And have basically been struggling with things ever since) I am lucky enough to have an amazing fiancee who has switched pronouns/names for me and is being 2000% supportive. But I needed to tell my mom because 1. She is my best friend. 2. She is the only one who could help me transition. I'm almost 20 but I live with her and go to school full time so I don't work.
Basically I wrote her a LONG letter. She wasn't around me the rest of the day because I was in my room. But at night she came in and kneeled in front of me. She told me this changes nothing. She always knew! (I remember a long time ago she asked me if I was like Chaz -_-) And she would always joke I was the son she never had. She said that she is going to try really hard to get me on her insurance now and we are going to find a doctor and start the transition! I am SO excited! I thought it would be years before this happened and now I can start my life...It's amazing. I know I'll have support from my sis and my grandma...So basically everyone on this Earth that matters to me will accept me.