Why didn't God come to me when I sought for him?

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Scarlett I tried not to comment here, as it's not my place to comment on religious topics.

But I prayed for that stuff too. I prayed for god to tell my parents to be nice, and I prayed for god to help me stop being so different from everyone else, and I prayed for some kind of insight, some kind of awareness that might make things easier, or might make me more useful or whole.

I was raised intensely religious. It's okay. I don't want to know what your current beliefs are, but I just want to say it's okay. Who you are is okay. Answers are not forthcoming. Just understand that you are okay as you are.

Felix.

I want you to know that I and I'm sure others, really understand how you felt and are feeling. I know it may sound trite, but here, at least, you not alone.

I can't explain why things happen. Things that are unfair. Things that are just plain wrong. But I know, that after working as hard as I can to deal with situations, often all that I cna reasonably do, is walk away and learn.

It doesn't clear the anger. It doesn't really ease the pain. It does, eventually, give it some meaning and make some sense.