How do you feel about being trans?

[Nathan.]

Pre T I would have said I hated it, but now I'm not quite sure where I am.

I don't hate being trans but i'm not sure i'm ok with it yet. Being trans has been a struggle and still today it makes things harder for me. These days I'm less dysphoric and much, much happier and no longer hate being trans, i'd love to be cis but i'm not and i'm mostly ok with that. The thing now that makes me occasionally hate being trans is shame, most of the time I don't think about being trans anymore, so I don't notice it and fool myself into thinking i'm ok with being a trans man, but when thinking about it I feel like a freak. Now i've been on T over a year and have had top surgery, trans things aren't on my mind like they used to be, so most of the time i'm neutral on being trans.

[blackMamba]

w00t!  I'm special 

[shortNsweet]

I guess I'm ok with the fact that I am trans. But I am not ok with what that means. If that makes sense...

I'm uncomfortable in my body. I hate how people can get treated. But I don't hate.

Still... I voted hate it.

[Annah]

Im ok with it on some days and I feel it was a gift on other days while a couple days here and there I did not care for it.

But for the most part I look at it as a gift; to experience something not too many people on this planet experiences...to experience both genders in one life.

[Michelle.]

It is.

[N.Chaos]

I hate every second and facet of it except for one singular thing.
I'd never have ended up with my boyfriend if not for my wrongbits. He's straight, but he's dating me and while he's known (and liked) me for 5 years or so, he started dating me about a month before I started living full time male, and was the first person to really back me up on all of this.

He bats down awkward questions from his coworkers who only know him as a nerdy, occasionally flirtatious straight guy with comments like "people change" or "So I'm bisexual, whatever" or any other little thing he thinks up. Up until yesterday, i kept thinking I'd give anything to have the right body, but I'd amend that now. I'd give anything to lose this goddam chest. The fronthole? Its got its uses. And yes, as he said, he'd still love me endlessly. And yes, as he also said, he'd still cling to me and hold me and be the perfect boyfriend, but I couldn't bear losing the only sex that makes me feel right. I love this guy, more than anything in the world. And if he can accept me for all that's wrong with me, I can accept a wayward hole for giving me some exceptionally good times with him.

(breaking news: CHAOS IS A COMPLETE SAP)

[Mahsa Tezani]

(breaking news: CHAOS IS A COMPLETE SAP)

Who is CHAOS?

[Forever21Chic]

  Wow 2 people voted they love being trans haha.

[MiaSakura]

As much as I hate myself, and don't want to be trans; it's me and who I am for now>  Though it sucks, I can't just snap my fingers and change it.  So I'll just keep trying and hoping for the best in the end.

[Mahsa Tezani]

  Wow 2 people voted they love being trans haha.

And one of those people was Chaz Bono.

[N.Chaos]

Who is CHAOS?

Me, N.Chaos. I sometimes refer to myself in the third person for the giggles. Sorry about the confusion there.

[justmeinoz]

Quite frankly I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy, and life would have been a lot simpler and more pleasant without it.  As I appear to be stuck with it, I will do my best to cope with it until such times as my mind and body can become congruent.

Karen.

[Cen]

I obviously wish it wasn't an issue.  It's the most daunting thing I've ever dealt with, but I'm not sure who I'd be if things had happened differently.  I don't hate where being "trans" has brought my life.  I see things getting better the more I accept it.

[malinkibear]

Usually I'm cool with it, but lately I've been feeling a lot of anxiety, guilt and shame. I think it's because I really want to start transitioning, but my girlfriend isn't cool with it, so I'm just sitting tight for now. Feels bad, man.

[Gadgett]

It doesn't bother me anymore.

I am whom I am plain and simple as that. If it's something I don't like I can change then I do but if it's something I can't I accept it and learn to love myself. I am who I am and I refuse to be told I need to hate this or that about myself anymore.

[Rossiter]

Sometimes I hate it, sometimes it's okay. It's somewhat better now that I'm on hormones and have started passing consistently, and I'm still early enough into it that I think more about passing than I do about being trans in general. I think once I get more used to being full-time I'll be thinking about everything else a lot more and that might not be so great, but eh. I'll deal with that when it happens.

Mostly, when I really think about it, I just think it's weird - like, in a "what are the odds?" kind of way. It feels really unlucky but also random to the point of ridiculousness, and sometimes I'm actually kind of amused by it. But then, I'm kind of amused by everything now and then. It's something that's so normal for me and yet so unusual to a lot of people that I kind of want to be all "hey guys look at me I'm trans AREN'T I FASCINATING."

I'm probably not explaining this very well.

[umop ap!sdn]

I used to hate it! Like, why me, why did I have to get stuck with this, why couldn't I have been a GG. Of course I'd still rather be cis than trans. But I've grown a thick skin. Yeah this is my condition, so what? Sometimes I will even wear my trans flag earrings when going out, just out of spite.

[pebbles]

I hate it... it's because of this that my life and thus memories are so full of pain and isolation, Hence why I'm so angry and bitter today.

[MacKenzie]

  I voted I hate it. 

[xXRebeccaXx]

I dont really like it, but I've come to peace with it.