Hello everyone.
I'm new on here and a little nervous as I'm not very open about myself but it's high time I stopped living in the dark and got some support and advice on how I am feeling. and since it seems you have a friendly community here I thought it would be the best place for me.
so, my name is jakey (or jake), at least that's what i'd preffer to be called. I'm 25 years old and right now I'm not exactly sure who I am.
I have always been a "tom boy" and could never understand the whole girly dressing up and taking hours to do make-up process. I had very few female friends growing up and had little interest in what supposidly normal little girls were into.
I just thought this was down to being a tom boy but in the last couple of years I realised it was much more than that. I started to identify myself as bigendered (only to a few close friends) and began to accept myself as that but the more I accepted it the lesser the desire to be female --- both mentally and physically. I am now thinking about my future and I like the idea of someday transitioning to male, which leads me to think maybe I am transgendered after all. but I know I'm no where near ready for that step yet. I have a long way to go before I do that, if I even do at all.
I do on occasions have a girly moment or two, but they're getting rarer. and often I can be slightly effeminate but still feel male. in other words I'm just confusing and slightly messed up right now so I think speaking to people who understand as such may help me put things into perspective
Hope to speak to you all soon.
love,
Jakey
