I just want to live, that's all. I spent all my life compromising my needs for the preferences of others so I am at the stage where I just do what I feel like doing.
A guy I went recently out with ended up preferring full figured, and curvy women. I was quite disappointed about being rather bony and muscular but now I am back to just admiring myself as I am. The right person will like me for what I have to live with!
I've also learned in this past year the more natural I behave the less doubt there is and it has worked so far. A GG would not hesitate very much to show up at a pool in bikini so why would I act any different?