Hey Kael!

I'm ftm too and this site has helped me out so much. There's lots of advice about passing, figuring things out, and other ftm-related stuff. And I wouldn't worry about being awkward, the people here are really nice.
As for letting other people get in the way of you transitioning....you won't ever get anywhere if you worry about other people. There's some quote that goes like, "Those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter." I know a boy's haircut is hardly anything compared to hormones or anything like that, but a couple days ago I got one. At first, I didn't want to, because I thought,"Oh, well my dad may not let me, and my mom may not like it and..." but once I got it, I felt awesome. XD You can't let yourself get pushed around, because if it's about what they want you to be, you won't be happy. :/
welcome to the forum!