Mahsa, i think you are too focused on labels, Gay, straight, trans. When you are explaining who or what you are, fair play they come in handy, but when it ACTUALLY comes down to attraction, feelings and being aethetically pleased the words fall appart. For example, the "gay guy" who kissed you, is he really secure in his gayness? Ive met a lot of gay guys who were actually closted bi-guys. And even if he is a gay guy, you wanting to kiss him isnt unusual, i know plenty of straight girls who like gay guys (one of the reasons Glee is so popular). People are attrated to people, I like men and women, sometimes i like gay women or a gay man, sometimes a straight woman or a straight man. But i dont think that has ANYTHING to do with my transition, my transition is about me feeling in the wrong body. Illl still be attracted to men and woman after my transition (If there is such thing as after a transtion but thats a whole new topic).
What i got from your post is that you are a sexual animal and you like a guy who is secure in who he is and accepting to your situation. Ive neevr heard you say anything that has made so much sense! You just gotta stop worrying so much and go with the flow. At the end of the day its about happiness not what anyother people think, be they in the bar or on here, the only opinions that matter are you and your SO.
I dont envy you at the mo, sexual desire makes things difficult at the best of times. Im lucky i suppose that i cant bare to use my "boy bits". makes this whole confusing situation something i wont have to deal with the likes of, till after GRS.
I hope this helps you hun and our previous bristlyness isnt festering bad feelings lol. For all the argueing i have to respect a woman who speaks her mind.
