Wow. What a week. First I had an appt sceduled for monday with my therapist but do to some technical difficulties it had to be resceduled to Dec 7th. Then long days and constent set backs at work made for a short week and small pay check
. But this weekend was what really got me upset. Basicly I didn't get to see my ex gfs daughter. That really upset me because she means the world to me and I think of her as my own daughter. First I was told that she was just spending the night at a friends house and would be back Saturday. Then it turned out that she had gone over for the weekend because she had a hard time coping with the situation. I can understand that but what really upset me was that my best friend lied to me about by not telling me and just telling me that she was spending the night at a friends house. So after a huge fight and copius explinations of feelings I thought we were at an understanding that she was more important then anything else. So Sunday rolled around and I was looking forward to seeing Angela her daughter and basicly the same thing happened. Kept getting later and later and my ex gf wasn't going to get her. This whole time I had the gut feeling that my ex just didn't want me arround her because of my ts status and I kept asking about it and she swore up and down that it wasn't the reason. It got to be time for me to go back out on the road and I still hadn't got to see her daughter and at that point I learned that my ex gf didnt want to go get her because she was being selfish (self admitited) and wanted me to herself. I got very upset at that point and left.. Later that night through text message and on the phone I found out that my gut was right to a point. Supposidly she was worried that her ex husband would try to take custody away from her if her daughter was around me so she sent her daughter to her friends for the weekend and had planned to go get her basicly in time to bring her home and send her to bed.
So yea I was devistated that night and was preety emotional and was even regretting my decision to come out and start transision. Luckilly I had some good friends that were able to talk to me and get me feeling better.
On a slightly better note I finished telling everyone who needs to know and the amount of support is incredable. Even my boss who I was worried would fire me was perfectly fine (if not a little supprised) with it. And this weekend I went out to get some snacks and a pack of ciggerettes as a girl and almost got carded. The guy working is a stickler for carding for cig purchesses. (has made me go home to get my drivers license before even after he knew I was old enouph). So when he asked to see my DL (Which still has my male name and picture and gender marker) my heart sank. I smiled sheepishly and said " Uh I think i forgot my ID at home?" more a question then anything. And he let it go and just asked for my birthday and let me get my cigs I was soo releaved.. He was also smiling alot and joking.. Was it possable he was flirting with me? I had only been in there a couple times as a guy over a years time so I don't think its possable that he recognized me.
But anyways yea that was my week and wow what a doozy. Sorry if this is the wrong place for this but the other pages really didnt seem to fit much better.
