Felt so down

[rexyrex]

I was out the other day and didnt get home till about 6-7 on train back home, and some drunk bunch of lads got on and all sat like around me and everything, and yes i pass as a guy as they said he him sir and that, they all had to much to drink (and yes im scared of them for some reson as im not much of an out going person and normaly shy,) they were being loud and talking to me and asking me qustions which was alright had to talk, as i was worryed they might beat me up or so....one of them ask me why my voice was funny (my voice is high -.-) and i said i had a problem with my voice and i was deaf too....and when they were about to get off one of them ask me if i was a girl or a boy and i said i was a boy and he just got off....

then after that it just hit me and i just cryed for some reson, i dont know why it gotten to me it like i just hated that and i felt like i was freak or something.

did that happen to any of u guys and what would you do? im pre T and i just cant wait any longer and yes i was despressed and wanted nothing to with the outside world, i just want to shut my self away again like i did before.

I really really hate my voice sometimes when im out and about it so girly. im ok now slowly getting over it and trying not to think about it much, so how do you all cope?

[Darrin Scott]

I've never had that happen myself, but I often times feel that way. I'm always read as female and even people who know me as trans and know I wanted to be treated like a boy still treat me like a girl and treat all the other trans people I know like boys. What keeps me going is I'm getting on T soon. I have little to feel confident about. I'm big chested and it looks funny when I bind. I hate my voice too. It's not really high, but it's still not male. It really bothers me. If I were you, I'd try to focus on the positive things you do have going on right now. I'm sure there is something. That usually helps me.

[rexyrex]

Thanks for the positive post, i like coming on to here it makes me feel welcome and people understand and be there for you. It the only thing that keeps me going at the moment, im on the waitting list to see a gender theorpy so im guessing im still a long way, i want to go out and do stuff and get a job but at the moment the only thing that is stopping me from doing it is my voice. That how bad it is, other then that im great. This is the 1st this has happen to me and wasnt use to it, so i guess i did the right thing. Also have relise life is hard and going through transition is too.

[Kreuzfidel]

Sorry to hear that, mate - people can be rude as hell, but just keep your head up.  Plenty of cisguys have high-pitched voices and get picked on, too - people like those blokes are always looking for perceived weaknesses in others, especially other blokes, to exploit.  You have to take the good with the bad. I still hide away as much as possible - until something changes with my voice or appearance, I'll have issues.  You're not alone.

[N.Chaos]

I've gotten that for most of my life. Ridiculed early as at least 4th grade with "why the hell do you have a mustache?" Once, when I was trying my ass off to be girly, I had a kid come up to me and ask if I was "some kind of effing drag queen". A group of kids were behind me getting on the bus a few years ago and had a nice big laugh about the "he-she thing" in front of them.

[rexyrex]

Sorry to hear that, mate - people can be rude as hell, but just keep your head up.  Plenty of cisguys have high-pitched voices and get picked on, too - people like those blokes are always looking for perceived weaknesses in others, especially other blokes, to exploit.  You have to take the good with the bad. I still hide away as much as possible - until something changes with my voice or appearance, I'll have issues.  You're not alone.

Thanks, i feel much better now today. So if they ask about my voice do i just say my voice box wasnt developed probly?

I've gotten that for most of my life. Ridiculed early as at least 4th grade with "why the hell do you have a mustache?" Once, when I was trying my ass off to be girly, I had a kid come up to me and ask if I was "some kind of effing drag queen". A group of kids were behind me getting on the bus a few years ago and had a nice big laugh about the "he-she thing" in front of them.

Damn, i hate it when people are like that, it can be really hurtful but have to try and ignore most of them beepheads. Just wish there was more of a nicer people who isnt really borthed or care about who u must be.

i been picked on almost all my life not just cos i was trans for other things. sorry to hear that it happen to u too, just wish u could kick them up in the bum....and i hate the fact they get away with it, makes my blood boil!

[Ayden]

I would say just be confident. When someone asks me what's up with my voice, I usually just ask what in the world they are talking about. I haven't had anyone respond with "you sound like a girl" yet. Like Kreuzfidel said, a lot of cis guys have high pitched voices. So I think if you just play it off like they are the ones who are mistaken, then no worries. At least, that is what I would do.

And yes, I still have issues with my voice. I try not to talk as much as possible in some situations because I really dislike my voice. I think a lot guys with high pitched voices probably feel a little embarrassed.

[Kreuzfidel]

I agree and would act like I didn't know what they were talking about.  It's tempting to respond to rude questions with sarcasm, but no one stands much of a chance with a gang of drunk idiots potentially beating them up.  I often just say that I have a hormonal disorder if they must know.

[N.Chaos]

Thanks, i feel much better now today. So if they ask about my voice do i just say my voice box wasnt developed probly?

Damn, i hate it when people are like that, it can be really hurtful but have to try and ignore most of them beepheads. Just wish there was more of a nicer people who isnt really borthed or care about who u must be.

i been picked on almost all my life not just cos i was trans for other things. sorry to hear that it happen to u too, just wish u could kick them up in the bum....and i hate the fact they get away with it, makes my blood boil!

Its all good, man. In retrospect, now that I'm finally being myself, it was a bit of a compliment. An odd one, but still. It helps a hell of a lot to have my boyfriend with me, whether he's making snarky comebacks or just silently lending support, I just feelt a lot better.

For everyone saying that there are bioguys with high voices, my ex drummer had an almost horrendously girlish voice/speaking pattern. He got mistaken for a girl quite a few times, in spite of his raging sideburns. So its not just us, lol.

[rexyrex]

oh right i have not met any bio guys who have a high voice apart from the one i saw on tv i think it was X factor or something.....

Im glad it not only just us but some bio guys too.

N.Chaos im glad u got ur head held up high and yeah it nice to have someone by ur side so u feel more safe but i was on my own that night....i try not to go out on my own much and i prefur going with someone.