My gay ex dilemma!!!

[MsDazzler]

I care and honestly girl, you aren't a gay man anymore. So no, you don't want to come home and find him spreading the rentboys legs he met on A4A.

Lol, that is funny because he and I had a discussion about that the next day - I told him that since now that our paths crossed again, it could not be the same as before because everything was different, even though ironically everything was still the same.

I told him that I was going on a different path as a transgender woman now, and not sure how it would work out for us this time around considering that he had never even ->-bleeped-<-ed a woman before, lol.

He did seem a little deflated when I was blunt and upfront that my sexual function was declining (even though I am a bottom).

Oh, god, A4A and Manhunt - I used to go browsing those years ago lol

[MsDazzler]

Pics or it didn't happen! Spill it, girl!

Hehe, well, there are some few pics from the party, but since I have not posted my OWN pic in my avatar pic, yet, I am holding off on posting pics for a bit longer. I am still self-conscious about my looks, lol.

But aside from the pics (which will be forthcoming soon enough)....

Brandon was on his best behavior. He was a gentleman, actually loved my bedroom which was done in pink (lol), and kept saying how pretty I was. Of course I was buttered up by that, lol. And yes, I fed him booze shots.

To my surprise, he did not become verbally abusive, although he did shooit off some sarcastic remarks which hurt my best friend's feelings at the bar that we went out to afterwards.

We parted ways without havin an argument that night, then the next day he invited me to another holiday party of his friend's. We had a serious conversation afterwards (which I touched upon briefly in the post above)... We were not buzzed or drunk either.

I was blunt with him about:

1) I still had anger and mistrust issues with him.

2) He would not find me sexually attractive eventually as I blossomed in a feminine, "sexually defuncut" transwoman over time

3) A gay/trans relationship probably would not work down the long road

All he said, just take our time and see how it goes.

My question - is it worth TAKING the time in the first place, though? Because this already sounds very complicated to begin with and shouldn't relationships start out without any babbage?

[Mahsa Tezani]

Hehe, well, there are some few pics from the party, but since I have not posted my OWN pic in my avatar pic, yet, I am holding off on posting pics for a bit longer. I am still self-conscious about my looks, lol.

But aside from the pics (which will be forthcoming soon enough)....

Brandon was on his best behavior. He was a gentleman, actually loved my bedroom which was done in pink (lol), and kept saying how pretty I was. Of course I was buttered up by that, lol. And yes, I fed him booze shots.

To my surprise, he did not become verbally abusive, although he did shooit off some sarcastic remarks which hurt my best friend's feelings at the bar that we went out to afterwards.

I was at Qbar tonight. I didn't see you there...

I offered a BJ to a cute older gay man at Edge tonight. It was awkward... I give this guy points for appreciating you now. Most of the gay men I knew were like, "Hun, you're a woman now...A FABULOUS WOMAN" OMG, they are so SFistix

[MsDazzler]

I was at Qbar tonight. I didn't see you there...

I offered a BJ to a cute older gay man at Edge tonight. It was awkward... I give this guy points for appreciating you now. Most of the gay men I knew were like, "Hun, you're a woman now...A FABULOUS WOMAN" OMG, they are so SFistix

Omg, Q Bar on Tuesday nights is lezzie night, lol. If there is one night that I don't go to Q bar out of the 7 nights its open, it is Tuesday nights! lol

Tomorrow I am supposed to go out to Mix with some gay friends then onwards to the Cafe. I am getting too old for all of this partying... NOT! lol

[Mahsa Tezani]

Omg, Q Bar on Tuesday nights is lezzie night, lol. If there is one night that I don't go to Q bar out of the 7 nights its open, it is Tuesday nights! lol

Tomorrow I am supposed to go out to Mix with some gay friends then onwards to the Cafe. I am getting too old for all of this partying... NOT! lol

Damn. I wish I could go...But I am stuck in Hayward doing holiday prep and I gotta be burban tomorrow.

I was gonna hit Hayes Valley Follies on Friday.

[MsDazzler]

Damn. I wish I could go...But I am stuck in Hayward doing holiday prep and I gotta be burban tomorrow.

I was gonna hit Hayes Valley Follies on Friday.

Follies? you mean Marlenas in Hayes Valley? It is fun and trans-friendly... I was out at Q Bar last night, and tonight I am supposed to meet this guy off OKCupid

[Mahsa Tezani]

Follies? you mean Marlenas in Hayes Valley? It is fun and trans-friendly... I was out at Q Bar last night, and tonight I am supposed to meet this guy off OKCupid

I was a top...You know how rare a top is in the Castro? LOL

I just used A4A in the past year for pranks. Like, "you're a hot gay dude and I am a ->-bleeped-<-...wanna do me? But you thought i was a hot boy...Just close your eyes and imagine I am that boy again"

Yeah, hasn't been successful and I attracted all the men who were into femmes. Even when I had A4A the first time around...

[MsDazzler]

lol, that is what I heard, that everyone was a bottom in the Castro-

Do you ever hit the straight bars/clubs in SF as well? I love Temple!

[Mahsa Tezani]

lol, that is what I heard, that everyone was a bottom in the Castro-

Do you ever hit the straight bars/clubs in SF as well? I love Temple!

I love Temple San Jose

But never been to the ones in the City.

But yeah, I was a top. I am gonna be a top again via viagra. heehee.

[MsDazzler]

lol, guess what? I went home with two andro people from Q Bar last night and had a lil afterparty... no sex though. We all crashed sleeping together drunk. I woke up with all of my clothes on, but one of them had panties on. gawk!

I think I am hitting Divas and the straight bars on Polk Street tonight - I need a break from Castro. lol

[Mahsa Tezani]

lol, guess what? I went home with two andro people from Q Bar last night and had a lil afterparty... no sex though. We all crashed sleeping together drunk. I woke up with all of my clothes on, but one of them had panties on. gawk!

I think I am hitting Divas and the straight bars on Polk Street tonight - I need a break from Castro. lol

I never go to the Loin.

I am home in Hayward talkin to some guy from Alabama who fixes cars. I assumed he was a cute ironic hipster... He's a freedom loving American. Gawd, I feel like Fifi.

[MsDazzler]

Well you are missing out on lots of straight guys who are open minded in the Loin, lol. The mere presence of Divas and the TS prostitutes who streetwalk there has awakened lots of the guys' secret desires, lol

As evidenced by how Divas usually get flooded by drunk, horny young guys stumbling in from other straight bars on Polk Street (a street over) at 1:00 A.M.... lol.

I have but stood smoking a cigarette many times in front of Divas, observing how the guy would stand in front of Divas, peering inside, swaying and debating whether to go in or not ... literally like a kid in front of a candy store. Heh.

[Mahsa Tezani]

Well you are missing out on lots of straight guys who are open minded in the Loin, lol. The mere presence of Divas and the TS prostitutes who streetwalk there has awakened lots of the guys' secret desires, lol

As evidenced by how Divas usually get flooded by drunk, horny young guys stumbling in from other straight bars on Polk Street (a street over) at 1:00 A.M.... lol.

I have but stood smoking a cigarette many times in front of Divas, observing how the guy would stand in front of Divas, peering inside, swaying and debating whether to go in or not ... literally like a kid in front of a candy store. Heh.

I have nothing to wear there...everything is meant for a day in the Marina or Haight.