Hypermasculinization of pre-transition transgender women

[carissa]

I can deffiantly say that I have tried to "toughen myself up" and have endured the hypermasculin stage most of my life.  A lot of it actually came from just how tall I am which really hurt my self confidence and confidence in being able to pass.  Also growing up in the south in the "redneck riveria" didn't help matters either.  So I took up lifting heavy weights, fishing and all the redneck activities along with hanging out with a lot of closed minded rednecks, and multiple other things to cover up what I was dealing with.  All it did though was just make life an even more living hell then before and I finally reached a time where I had to just accept that I am a female and to live the life I want and deserve.

[Ultimus]

Yes. I have:
-attempted to go to a military service academy (Westpoint, etc.) but couldn't because of medical reasons
-attempted to enter Navy SEAL training (couldn't because of medical reasons)
-done wrestling, brazilian jiu-jitsu, boxing, cage fighting, etc.
-done bodybuilding

[Mahsa Tezani]

Yes. I have:
-attempted to go to a military service academy (Westpoint, etc.) but couldn't because of medical reasons
-attempted to enter Navy SEAL training (couldn't because of medical reasons)
-done wrestling, brazilian jiu-jitsu, boxing, cage fighting, etc.
-done bodybuilding

I had planned to join the Air Force, but alas...don't ask don't tell.

[RhinoP]

I've personally always hated hypermasculinity, never partook in it, and have never been attracted to the guys who partake in it. However, I've always found myself either wanting to be a girl, or wanting to be a popular guy so that I can get close to the guys I have crushes on. Life has always been very "common sense" for me, and I've always had a specific type of guy that I like. Just so happens that at my age, all the "popular guys" are the guys who look very feminine, so I've always wanted to look like that while I transition (with the help of facial surgery and anti-androgens), identifying with whatever gender I feel like on whatever day all while looking soft and feminine everyday, and undergoing the full female transition when I feel like it, because I also know that's the eventual conclusion for me - I just feel like being a woman from all corners is something I want to fully accomplish around age 25 or 30, with simply looking more girlie and soft (in boy or girl form) as something I want to accomplish first and right now.

[heffalump]

Been a lumberjack, tree surgeon, got into/initiated more fights than i can remember, tried to do weight lifting at the gym much to my brother's embarrsasment. Still as girly just more beaten up and scarred, but thats life!

[Nurse With Wound]

Never done any of that stuff, hell I even disagree with things like the military. o;

Personality wise I've always just acted as myself, with interests, mannerisms and stuff. I just didn't present how I wanted (femme clothes etc), not that it didn't stop people being bullies because I had somewhat girly mannerisms.

[justmeinoz]

Not "hyper", but still stereotypical masculine activities, 30 years in the Police, martial arts, surfing, hunting, cars, motorcycles.  The only activities I have kept from that part of my life are motorcycling and fishing, and there are plenty of women around here who do those.

Karen.

[Jennifer]

I'm a late transitioner and I lived most of my life engaged in thrill seeking, adrenaline rush, risky activities.

I like my new life much better.

Jennifer

[Davina9]

I always believed if I could be a better boy/man the feelings would go away so I worked out a lot, pumped iron and engaged in every contact sport  and the rougher the better including several fights.  Looking back I obviously was  trying to prove to myself that I was a real man and it was my way of coping with the feelings that tormented me.  Of course in the end none of that helped.  After too many years of living in denial and fighting against myself  I've  finally  accepted the fact I am a  woman however  I'm a woman with a muscular body, a  big chest and broad shoulders that I would like to get rid of.

[Trixie]

I have immersed myself into the worlds of auto racing, aviation, guns and the sciences. All stereotypically boyish things, but really, I didn't do it to prove my masculinity or anything. I'm still very interested in all of those things, and I see no contradiction between me liking them and being female.

I'm not the flamboyantly girly type anyway. Just a nerdy girl in a nerdy guys body. That's how I would define myself.

[Joanna]

I have always been a gentle soul and quite feminine in my manner.  As a gay guy I loved to be the passive one but did enjoy getting my own way too
I was airline cabin crew for 4 years ( how gay) but also drove a bus for a year which i hated as it was dirty and too rough.  It is also a lonely job.  The only thing i did to masculinize myself was lift weights for a few years.  This was because i knew i had to change something about myself and guessed appealing to my masculine side would work.  At first it did boost my confidence but it did not last for long.  I just was not like all the other gym rat dudes I shared the gym with. Gimme feminine features and curves any day.

[Amalina]

Only one I'd fit in is autoguy but it was just being raised around race cars and race tracks, not something I did to prove myself.

Thinking back the closest thing I did that could be seen as trying to act masculine was when I was a super angry cocky guy or "Alpha Male" as some put it. That wasn't even to appear manly in this sense though really, it was born from the need for a date so really strictly for women not to convince other guys I was one of them. The nice guy route rarely worked so after a lot of heartbreak I gave the warped women around me what they wanted. Never treated them bad but would treat other people bad to give off that vibe of self confidence. I was in total Honey Badger mode and I still feel bad about it.

Honestly I always admitted I wasn't a typical guy. Just never meant it back then, like I realize now it really was.

[Lynn]

I don't fit into any of the ones you described there ... I did try to be a really macho guy at one point in my life but I just couldn't do it. I'm just way too nice for that.

So I ended up doing all sorts of computer-related things, which is also more of a male-dominated thing. The only thing that stuck to me is gaming, that's the only thing I actually enjoy doing ...

[Mahsa Tezani]

I don't fit into any of the ones you described there ... I did try to be a really macho guy at one point in my life but I just couldn't do it. I'm just way too nice for that.

So I ended up doing all sorts of computer-related things, which is also more of a male-dominated thing. The only thing that stuck to me is gaming, that's the only thing I actually enjoy doing ...

I actually do toy customs. Currently workin on a Michael Jackson.