Hi Helena,
Welcome to the best family on the Net, bar none. You are not alone in your predicament. Many of us have been there before you. It's a good place to be, for the time being while you learn more about yourself. Quite safe and non intimidating.
You'll want to move out of there in your own good time. So whatever you do, keep in contact and let us know how you are coping. Enjoy the journey. It doesn't have a destination, it only has the most glorious unimaginable opportunities available to you.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa huggs
Catherine