finally taking the first step

[chrissy1983]

I'm 28 yrs old and finally taking the first step and starting therapy!! I am worried that my kids (4 yr old daughter & 3 month old son) will grow up without there father, and how it will affect their childhood. On the other hand though if I don't do something now my depression will ruin my family and may even drive me to suicide. Since i made my mind up my anxiety is through the roof!.. I can't sleep or concentrate.. i seem to spend all my spare time researching everything i can online. I am lucky enough to live in a province where s.r.s is covered through medical, i just don't know what im gonna do for a new career.. im a diamond driller by trade and make very good money.. however its a very male dominant industry being how physically demanding the labour is and as i start my transition Im sure I won't be able to stay drilling

I have a very understanding  gf who has no problem with me crossdressing but will not stay in a relationship with me after i become female as she is not a lesbian and prefers to be with a male.. however she will stand by me throughout my transition and offer whatever help and support she is able to

any advice or feedback on my current situation would be greatly appreciated.. i have found many inspirational storys on here and hope i can contribute some of my own in the future as well

[justmeinoz]

Welcome and Congratulations.  As you have come out to yourself and your partner the hardest part is over.

How to approach the situation with your children is always a bit tough until you actually do it, even when they are adults.  At 4 though, your daughter is living in a magical world where things change into something else all the time, so I think she can cope.  There are lots of single mothers out there doing a  great job too, as well as same sex couples, so don't  put yourself down.

It's understandable that you have become a bit self-obsessed, we all do at first, as we are trying to reinvent ourselves on the run.  It will pass, especially if you have a good Gender Therapist who can help you ask yourself the right questions.   

Are there any options for tertiary study building on your trade qualifications?  That might be a good place to look for career options.

Whatever happens, remember you have a really big family here. 

Karen.

[annette]

Hi Chrissy

First of all, welcome.
I don't know or you are gonna need any advice, it seems to me that you have tought things well over.
Good to read that your gf is very supporting.
You can be glad that she is a good friend even if you don't stay together.
The only thing I can do is wishing you a smooth transition.

hugs
Annette