is it wierd to be screwed up cause im not screwed up anymore ?

[angelfaced]

so im mtf and ive been living for for like 8 months now or so and everything is going insanely well. no more g.i.d. or depression or anything like that. My entire life ( im 27 ) has been about becoming female, but now that its over, i really have like no motivation or anything. I really dont really know what to o next cuz i never really thought i would get here, so now im like " now wut " ? it kinda feels like im depressed cuz im not depressed anymore, lol.

[MsDazzler]

Yes that is screwed up to be depressed because you are not depressed anymore. You've gotten used to always feeling depressed; depression was like a security blanket to you. Now that you have taken steps to remedy it, you miss it.  Also you have always occupied yourself with the next step to take.

The next logical step is SRS... which reminds me that some people feel a huge let down and depression after SRS because it is such a consuming life goal and it is a huge crash afterwards when it is all over and done.

Hmm, maybe you should get SRS so you could get depression afterwards? 

End my freebie shrink advice.

P.S. you mispelled "weird" as "wierd".

[angelfaced]

Yes that is screwed up to be depressed because you are not depressed anymore. You've gotten used to always feeling depressed; depression was like a security blanket to you. Now that you have taken steps to remedy it, you miss it.  Also you have always occupied yourself with the next step to take.

The next logical step is SRS... which reminds me that some people feel a huge let down and depression after SRS because it is such a consuming life goal and it is a huge crash afterwards when it is all over and done.

Hmm, maybe you should get SRS so you could get depression afterwards? 

End my freebie shrink advice.

P.S. you mispelled "weird" as "wierd".

well maybe im wierd and not weird

[stldrmgrl]

... I really dont really know what to o next cuz i never really thought i would get here, so now im like " now wut " ?

Get out there and live a happy life, you!  That's what you do next. 

[MacKenzie]

it kinda feels like im depressed cuz im not depressed anymore, lol.

  I know what you mean, i'm the same way. At times it's almost like I want to be depressed and cry but I can't because i'm just so gosh darn happy finally being myself for a change like i'm walking on sunshine! I used to think maybe i'm just emo...I mean who wants to be depressed? Lol 

[Lily]

I sort of was the opposite of that. Before I discovered I was trans, all I wanted to do was sit around the house and mope all day. But now I wish I could go out with friends every day and have fun adventures. (it's just hard to find people who are available )

[MsDazzler]

Get out there and live a happy life, you!  That's what you do next. 

or get out there on the operating table and get SRS... that is what we trans women do, isnt we? 

[espo]

so im mtf and ive been living for for like 8 months now or so and everything is going insanely well. no more g.i.d. or depression or anything like that. My entire life ( im 27 ) has been about becoming female, but now that its over, i really have like no motivation or anything. I really dont really know what to o next cuz i never really thought i would get here, so now im like " now wut " ? it kinda feels like im depressed cuz im not depressed anymore, lol.

It's actually very normal.  If all you have ever known in life is depression and sadness, then you don't have that 'blanket' anymore and all those coping skills and survival tactics aren't needed now.  Like someone who has lived in jail for so long, the outside world is strange or scary.  (So I've been told, I'm not a psychologist but I've had discussions on this before)

[Natkat]

so im mtf and ive been living for for like 8 months now or so and everything is going insanely well. no more g.i.d. or depression or anything like that. My entire life ( im 27 ) has been about becoming female, but now that its over, i really have like no motivation or anything. I really dont really know what to o next cuz i never really thought i would get here, so now im like " now wut " ? it kinda feels like im depressed cuz im not depressed anymore, lol.

kinda see your point.. all my teen years been about transdition and dealing with transstuff..
now when I finally can be myself I feel like I should start thinking about normal stuff..

its wierd, when I where 16 I thought I never wouldnt survive, because of that I didnt pay much attention to education and so.
now I feel like now when I did, survive I have to go on with my life... I kinda feel alittle back in time,

well its never too late to set goal for yourself, beside being a women there might be points you would like,
I try think like that.