Thank you so much for such a beautiful thread. Maia,
You are an absolute inspiration to us who are transitioning. What you have achieved in the short period of time since you started, is just so profoundly amazing. You are like a beacon on steroids. Or crack for that matter.
You have blossomed richly in heart, sole, mind and body. Your former male persona was a good person to you. To carry you to this point and allow you to graciously ascend to your destiny, perfectly, wholesome well balanced and intact the way you are.
Your planning is exquisite, so well composed and executed, it would put the best CEO to shame; and well defined to the extent the only options available is recovery in all aspects you have wished.
You appear to have a tenacious grip of a precept I've tried to live by, albeit not too successfully. It goes something like this.
Watch your thoughts; they become your words
Watch your words; they become your actions,
Watch your actions; they become your habits,
Watch your habits; they become your character,
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.
Quote from: Melody Maia on December 30, 2011, 09:10:29 PM
I would forevermore become and be known as Maia.
So, 2011 was indeed about those things from which girls are made.
Of becoming me with all its ups and downs.
No doubt the most exciting, most excruciating, most fulfilling and most confusing year of my entire life.
However, 2012 I see as the year of recovery. As the year I finally become complete physically and recover from surgery. I hope other recoveries follow. My spirit has taken quite the battering as I have driven myself very hard. I need a respite to recover there. Financially I need to recover as well. A job more in line with my educational experience and past income levels would be top priority here. Finally, I need to recover in the relationship department. I've become comfortable in my lesbian skin, but I need to sort out my love life. Anyway, those are some tall orders perhaps, but I have learned that I am made of tough stuff and can do anything I set out to achieve. I can't wait for this new life to begin and for things to finally "get better" as all those videos seem to indicate will happen.
What you have done, and have achieved over the past 12 months and a bit is; you've deliberatively chosen to demonstrate, that you are willing to surrender what you are, for what you want to be.
That clearly defines the maturity required to accept all the responsibilities associated with becoming a biological (pertaining to life & living things :{wiki}) woman. Yes there is a small difference with body organs, but that doesn't impede you from being classified completely and fully, as a biological woman. After all, a woman who has suffered a full hysterectomy (removal of womb and ovaries) or mastectomy, is still classified a biological woman.
I anxiously await for this time next year, when you will be telling us that what you wished for in 2012 was exceeded in unimaginable abundance. My god girl, if you could bottle that attitude of yours, I'd buy a truckload of it. You could sell it to Corporate America and never have to worry again.
I wish you nothing but the absolute best for 2012. Go forward and live your destiny.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa hugs
Catherine
