Maia,
Thank you for those beautiful, gut wrenching words of raw honesty. A rare quality not often seen in today's society. It just highlights your extraordinary character. This type of honesty doesn't require an apology, it demands an accolade.
Thank you for the magic and pixie dust. It helps. It works – to a degree
I have yet to travel that road of despair. Decimating the lives of those near and dear. It's the price I have to pay for the heinous crime of masquerading as a man, that I'm not. Never have been. The lying, the cheating, the embezzlement and theft of everyone's trust and love. I doubt whether I can ever be forgiven.
I learnt in Science classes all those many years ago, that for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. You are traveling through some dark times at the moment, which forces science to grant you some amazing enlightened times. Look into the eyes of those that have gone before us, and you'll see it's true. That has to include those dark times you had as a child. - Science is never wrong.
I view my transition as the death of Paul. Therefore there must be a grieving process somewhere along the line. Maybe it's what you may be experiencing. Who knows. It's all individual.
You yourself said, you have the strength. Hang in there Maia and keeping going as you will. There are a lot of people here standing in the gap for you. You are very much appreciated and LOVED.
Be safe, well and happy
Lotsa hugs
Catherine
