Where you you after two years

[cookiekangaroo]

I've been out for almost six years, though I didn't start living full time as a man until about three years ago, but I still haven't started T or anything. it's rather frustrating. :/

[Squirrel698]

It's been 2 years since I've been out and I've been taking T for about a year and a half.  Quite a bit has changed. 

My name is now exactly as I want it and my driver licenses says what I want it to say. 

I have so many more friend than I use too.  Since now I'm happy to go out and interact with people.  Before my transition I was basically a shut-in.   

I am much more at peace with my rotten family situation.  I really am at the point of acceptance of knowing my mother will never accept me. 
Holding out that last bit of hope she would come around was very damaging to me. 

My marriage isn't the most stable of animals but it continues on.  The problems we are currently having don't actually relate to my transition. 

There's more but those are the big points.  I have a cat now and I've wanted one for years.  So that's nice. 

[Felix]

I haven't been out (this time) for two years yet. I think I came out in late summer of last year. I lived as male for awhile when I was younger, but then I got an on-the-books job and chickened out on transition.

So I'll go with one year. After one year, I've filed for name change but it doesn't turn final until Feb 3rd, most people get my pronouns right, I have my DMV gender letter but obviously can't use it yet, my kid calls me daddy (I let her decide on her own when to switch to that), and I've been on T for about a month. On the surface I'm a complete loser (no career, living in a sketchy studio, bad credit, disjointed history, etc), but I'm happy. I'm finally at ease because I'm finally being myself. It's pretty sweet.

[Paul]

I've only been out for about 5 months, but I'm going by Paul and male pronouns at work, my name change is in the process and I'm starting T in a couple of months. 

Mentally I find myself both happier and my frustrated.  I'm happier because I'm finally getting the process started, but I'm also more frustrated because some days I'm finally being seen as male, but the times when I'm NOT seen as male it's frustrating knowing I don't always pass. 

[ApproachingMars]

After two years... I think that's when I -just- got around to accessing my local LGBT community, other than that it was all personal progress and my parents were still thinking it was a phase.

[Felix]

Mentally I find myself both happier and my frustrated.  I'm happier because I'm finally getting the process started, but I'm also more frustrated because some days I'm finally being seen as male, but the times when I'm NOT seen as male it's frustrating knowing I don't always pass.

I feel the same way. I feel pretty fully male and I forget that I don't always pass, so when I don't, it hurts.

[King Malachite]

2 years later I have come to terms with myself as trans and I plan on taking the steps needed to transition in the future

[Paul]

I feel the same way. I feel pretty fully male and I forget that I don't always pass, so when I don't, it hurts.

I hear ya on that one.  I think it's like taking a pin to my balloon.

[anibioman]

im 1.5 years out and i have a life plan and ive socially transitioned. i cant do much more do to my age im working on getting on blockers then T and a legal name change.

[Berserk]

Same. But the depression and frustration had dramtically increased.

Probably around 3 years since I really began accepting myself, coming out and transitioning...but I'm just wondering if others who feel as stated in the above posts...how do you find it affects you advancing your life overall outside of transition? Honestly, I feel like I could have done more since the beginning to get top surgery...but most of the time these days I just feel so apathetic about everything and its only getting worse. Including school, work and generally trying to do things that I always was really passionate about. But honestly a lot of trans-related stuff always occupies my brain, makes me feel like ->-bleeped-<-...yet when it comes to doing something about it I feel so ->-bleeped-<-ing apathetic. I know its depression, and I know some of it is related to my body, but can't even force myself to do anything about that. I used to see a counselor, do support group, but can't even force myself to go there anymore. Does anyone else feel this way?

So in the last two years...while I've come to feel like I'm finally living a life more true to myself as far as my real sex/gender, I also feel that sorting out trans-related stuff has really slowed down every other plan I had for my life. And I also feel like feeling depressed has even slowed down plans to get top surgery and such...like I have no motivation, yet every day is worse if I'm not one step closer to it.

[conformer]

After two years . . .

I'm alive
I'm almost 2 months on testosterone
Out to my friends
Out to my family
Half stealth/half out at school
Comfortable with my body
Both of my parents are supportive < - - - Never thought I'd see the day
I can plan out a future for myself.

Now if you talked to me two years ago, when I was lost and felt so hopeless, and told me that in two years all of this will happen, I would have looked at you like an idiot and said you're full of shxt. lmao

[Berger]

I'm in the exact same spot I was in two years ago. It sometimes feels like things are never really going to change for me.