Hey all! How's it goin?
I guess I'll introduce myself.
My name is Brooke. I'm 36 years old, and still living in my hometown. I believe I am a transsexual. That is, I feel as if I am or should have been born a girl. I only recently (about 1 year) decided that this is just who I am and I can not deny it anymore.
I spent from age 6 to 35 dressing secretly. Apparently, I'm quite good at keeping such a deep secret.
I actually wished I got caught a few times so I could just end the madness. I don't know how I made it this far without getting caught or at least accepting this when I was younger. My mom caught me a couple times when I was like 7 but that was about it. From then on, I knew to be ultra careful. I put a lot of effort into keeping my cover.
I spent the last couple years researching this on the Internet in a serious capacity. It was shocking and a relief to read my story from so many other people in the world. So many people know just what I am going thru, and I am not alone. I didn't expect it to be so prevalent. I must have purged all my clothes at least 5 or 6 times (I miss some of em!!). It was eye-opening to see so many other people have done the same things as me.
I think what finally solidified in my mind, that I am transsexual, is the hypothetical that IF I could go back knowing what I know now I would have started taking hormones when I was 14 and to hell with what my friends thought. I would have chartered my life for transition from early on, without a doubt.
I met the most incredible women recently that I didn't think existed. She has given me a lot of strength, hope, and inspiration. And she makes me feel incredibly good.
togetherwecan, I'm sooooooo glad I we met! How unexpected this has been with you and the connections we have made.
I'm so thankful for it!
Well, that's all I have for now. I'm sure we'll find out more about me as time goes on.
Take care everyone.
hugz
