Okay, so I think that this is a little stupid and I defiantly have bigger issues I just want to know what you girls think is the best thing to do.
Recently I lost my wallet, and am in need for a new one. It had never been a big deal that I carried a wallet until I came out to my friends, and family that I was transsexual.
Here lately i have been looking for another wallet, however, I cannot bring myself to buy one. I think that this is mostly because it is just one more thing that puts the thought "she is a he" into my friends and even my boyfriends head. My biggest complicit here is my boyfriend, he says he likes me as both a guy and/or a girl, which would be great if I did not want him to see me as a girl. This stretches father than the wallet, however, it is the best example I can give. Everyone does not know about my situation so the solution cannot be as simple as buy the wallet that makes you fill the best about yourself , or buy the wallet that you actually like, because if that where true it would be that much more obvious to the people around me, that don't have any idea about my situation, as to what is going on.This holds true even though I want everyone to know, however, I do not think i am ready for it.
I hope my babble was not so incoherent that you could not understand it and be able to respond in an informative way. If you have a hard time or need any more information to try and help please ask i don't mind.
Thank you for reading, and i appreciate anyone's opinion they could give on the matter.
ps. ( i got a few replies and this is my response to what the problems were)
okay so I think the confusion is what gender i am as far as how i typed my paragraph, well that is difficult on the outside as of right now i look like a guy, but as you well know what's on the outside is not what counts. My boyfriend thinks of me as a girl, because he knows i am working towards that, and i want everyone to think of me that way until a time at which i could actually pull it off. As of right now i am trying to make any decision i can that makes me seem more girly because i want to be more open with myself to others, however, i have a problem there, my mother. she is not taking me telling people this very well. so something as little as a boys or girls wallet is a decision that i struggle wit
