This is a bit weird, but I wanted to write about it anyway.
I was born with some muscles missing in my upper right quadrant (major pectoral, and some in the shoulder, arm, lower back), and some of the bones are a little smaller (so my right hand is smaller than my left, the arm is a little shorter, collarbone, stuff like that).
When I matured into a "man", I looked quite lop-sided, because my left side bulked out much more than my right (where there were no muscles to bulk). I've always had an uncomfortable, divided sense of my body, poor self-image, self-consciousness and all that, because of this.
Now one of the unexpected side-effects of me transitioning is that I'm evening out. My muscle bulk is reducing, so my left side is reducing to look more like my right (which has less muscle to reduce) - and my right boob is finally growing to catch up with the left, now that my E dose has been upped, so my chest is beginning to look even for the first time since I was a little kid.
Suddenly I'm starting to feel like one, complete, undivided person - and all it took was to be a woman
. It's *such* a metaphor...
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